Monday Nov 15, 2004

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In honor of my two new cd purchases and my feelings on life....

Lost-The Cure, from the cd The Cure


I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the head of this stranger in love

Holding on given up
To another under faded setting sun
And I wonder where I am...
Could she run away with him?
So happy and so young
And I stare
As I sing in the lost voice of a stranger in love
Out of time letting go

In another world that spins around for fun
And I wonder where I am...
Could he ever ask her why?
So happy and so young...
And I stare... But...
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the heart of this stranger in love
Holding on given up
To this other under faded setting sun
And I'm not sure where I am...
Would he really turn away?
So happy and so young...
And I stare...
As I play out the passion of a stranger in love
Letting go of the time
In this other world that spins around for one
And I'm not sure where I am...
Would she know it was a lie?
So happy and so young...
And I stare... But...
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
In the soul of this stranger in love
No control over one
To the other under faded setting sun
And I don't know where I am...
Should he beg her to forgive?
So happy and so young...
And I stare...
As I live out the story of a stranger in love
Waking up going on
In the other world that spins around undone
And I don't know where I am...
Should she really say goodbye?
So happy and so young
And I stare... But...
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I can't find myself
I got lost in someone else.


HIM-Beautiful, from the cd Deep Shadows and Brillant Highlights


Just one look into your eyes
One look and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one kiss and I'm alive
One kiss and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one touch and I'm on fire
One touch and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one smile and I'm wild
One smile and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

Oh and you're so beautiful
My darling
Oh you're so beautiful
You're so beautiful
Oh my baby
You're so beautiful
And you're so beautiful
Oh my darling
Oh my baby
And you're so beautiful


Love and emotions are something that I still struggle with. Torn between being completely cold and wanting so badly to love someone and be loved in return. It's like I reach out but I can never grasp what I want. Everyone says that I am trying to hard. Is is too much to ask for someone to love you and share your bed, your heart, and your life? *deep fucking sigh*

I will respond to your comments when I can. I gotta go to class.

jab1432:
I don't think that is too much to ask... I think nearly everyone struggles with those same thoughts. I know I do. But what can you do? On one hand you don't want to get hurt, on the other you don't want to be lonely... I guess it is the fact that it is so rare that makes it so much better when you finally do find your love.
Sooner or later you will find him or he will find you. Just don't give up... Peace biggrin

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