devil_bitch

Still wondering when things will stop spiraling out of control.

Saw a couple of friends from high school who admitted they both had massive crushes on me. It's wierd cuz they were like little brothers to me.

I have been drinking way too much lately to deal. Vodka and I are back on a first name basis.

The ex is staying in town. However he doesn't have time to be with me because he needs to be with his son. He says he loves me but we rushed into things too fast and he needs to figure out his life. But maybe in the future. Which we all know is a bunch of fucking horse shit. Don't say you love someone and then just take it all away like it never fucking happened. I am not over it. It all still pisses me off. He was the guy. Everything felt right. The chemistry was great. I still get woozy when I catch his scent on my sheets or some clothes of his that I have. He gave me his grandmother's ring. You don't do that and then take the whole relationship back. Yeah I am going to be angry for a long time. I am waiting till I see him agian.

Work sucks. They are trying to convince me not to quit which I guess I should be proud of that or something but I still hate it. So is there such a thing as a job you love?