devil_bitch

NIN fucking rocked my world!!!

Life was all kinds of good yesterday. I got very fucked up. Rocked out and made some new friends. I always make friends at shows. More stories to tell I guess.

My son's bday was today so we did the party thing. My ex was there boy was that fun. I finally just said to him, "I love you but I am tired of waiting for you to grow up" I have wasted so many years of my life hoping that he will be the good man that I used to know before the drugs. Before the drama. At least he showed up today. That was good for our son. But then he started talking to me about how he got caught up in the drug shit again hard core but now he is gonna be clean again. Rrriiiggghhht. That happening is like me marrying Trent Reznor. Anyway we started bitching about our relationships or lack there of on my end. I said yeah I can't even get laid. To which he says "You could but you don't want to." Ha. To which I said the only way he was going to get something from me was if it came with a wedding ring. Yes I know I have issues. After all the jail time, bad drug deals, and other horrible situations I have been through with him I still want my family together. I still want to have more children with him. It would be nice if all my kids had the same gene set ya know. But again he will never be able to live straight and I can't play the gansta white dude drug dealer's black wife anymore. Moving on....

Bram and his very cute little boy came to the party and it was fun. That little boy is so darn cute.


Ren Fest tomorrow. I am planning on buying a hip belt from Gypsy Jewelry.

Oh and what is it with you men never being able to call people back? I don't understand.

And for a why me moment....

If I am so sexy, smart, cool, fun to be with, and all around wonderful.... How come the only warm thing I get to cuddle up next to at night are my dogs?