devicox

officially my b-day tonight/today. didn't do any crazy this time. Actually, its the first time I treated like "any other day". Although I did go out with a good friend to have a Luther burger. This is a hamburger, with bacon put into a sliced Krispey Kreme (sp?) donut. Really fcking good. Tomorrow/today I'm going to fix all the disfuntional shit going on with my apartment... so, working on my portflio will be easier.

what a boring post.



that makes it better.

I'm been with my gf. for two years... a little more. I've never been with anybody for more than two years. My friends know me as the person that changes skin every year (like a snake... yeah, it's dumb). We're 5 states away... and for the first time I've been in a long distance relationshit. I don't know whats going on... it might be a fuckin pattern... but once again, I feel like being alone. unadulterated.

the worst part is, she's older... way older. And, I know for some women, its a pattern to start talking about the long term shit. engagements, marriage, etc. That's way over my head right now... how could anybody be ready for that @ 23? you'd have to be severely dellusional. ...

I guess its just me. I love complexity in my architecture. In my design. In any kind of project I undertake. But not in me personal life.

I walk around a tipped over trash can for a week... before picking it back up... so, I gues I have the problem?
I dunno.


monkeys always good.