deviantsunflower

I was looking through my old pics and found this from mid summer... ahh... falls coming.



It was chilly last night. Maybe it would have helped if we actually sat by the fire. Instead, we played kings on the deck and peered the fire from the distance. After one long round, I realized I wasn't up for drinking.

My bestfriend and I sat out until the dew came out. The boys were tuckered and called it a night. She had nothing but good words to say about who I've become in the past year. She put me in such high spirits. I really needed to hear everything she had to say. I love her for that. I love her period. It was a total confidence boost.

I had a visit with Saberscrib this evening... more color. Remind me not to pick!! I love picking... gross I know.

Fear, my number one cause of anxiety, depression, paranoia...

♥ Not knowing what to say
♥ Being alone
♥ Sounding stupid
♥ Migraines
♥ Being left behind or forgotten about
♥ Eating too much and not expelling enough
♥ Being unattractive
♥ People not knowing the real me
♥ Gaining weight
♥ Being judged
♥ Saying things the wrong way
♥ Pain
♥ Bouncing my mortgage payment
♥ Spending too much money
♥ Addiction