i need to learn how to sleep more...maybe weeks, days...time in general won't seem to drag on forever and ever.
it seems lyke life is really jerky lately...it may sound miserable but i'm almost waiting for my life to fall apart....that seems to be the case with everyone else lately anyway. it seems like all i do is work and console people...eep!
my ex, whom i still value as a friend, just lost his job....is getting tried for 1st degree theft! he made some mistakes but he didn't steal anything...says he didn't anyway. and i don't doubt him for a few reasons. for one his job is everything and more to him. and more importantly if he did, i would either have known already or he would have admitted it when all this came up (to me anyway.)
the worst part is i've been in this funk, where something feels lyke it's gonna go wrong, but hasn't quite yet. not toward me or anything, but that something major is going to happen.
it's really sad actually, one of the few things i wouldn't have expected...which only makes more sense.
my current, his ex is psycho....for starts she wants to rip my eyes outta my face because i allegedly stole garris from her, even tho they had been broken up for 8+ months before we even met. he was stiill living there, even sleeping in her bed tho, to give her some credit. but their relationship was miserable, nothing but fighting...even their friendship seems to be that way. she got frighteningly sick tho, and he's been there to help her out and such....i'm not the jealous type so i'm not really taking offense or anything. it's just really sad to see someone so sick, and not be able to even say get better without having something thrown at me or what not.
worse yet he was supposed to go over there tonite....he was with me all day and i had to work so it wasn't really anything....said he wasn't going to but i'm sure he got talked into it anyway....but now he won't answer my phone calls.....and didn't call when he said he was going to. i hate being flaked on...not that i would have to called, but if you say you're going to do something just do it! anyway, i fear he fell asleep at her house...he won't call me from her phone because she gets angry fast....i'm not afraid that he's cheating or anything lyke that..but it's totally inappropriate...i mean how would he feel if i passed out at my ex-fiance's house?????? probably something lyke
or 
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so bleck...that's all i have to say...
actually i should probably say that i'm actually doing relatively well, despite everyone around me having bad luck. i hope you all are doing good as well <3
<3
-->deviance
it seems lyke life is really jerky lately...it may sound miserable but i'm almost waiting for my life to fall apart....that seems to be the case with everyone else lately anyway. it seems like all i do is work and console people...eep!
my ex, whom i still value as a friend, just lost his job....is getting tried for 1st degree theft! he made some mistakes but he didn't steal anything...says he didn't anyway. and i don't doubt him for a few reasons. for one his job is everything and more to him. and more importantly if he did, i would either have known already or he would have admitted it when all this came up (to me anyway.)
the worst part is i've been in this funk, where something feels lyke it's gonna go wrong, but hasn't quite yet. not toward me or anything, but that something major is going to happen.
it's really sad actually, one of the few things i wouldn't have expected...which only makes more sense.
my current, his ex is psycho....for starts she wants to rip my eyes outta my face because i allegedly stole garris from her, even tho they had been broken up for 8+ months before we even met. he was stiill living there, even sleeping in her bed tho, to give her some credit. but their relationship was miserable, nothing but fighting...even their friendship seems to be that way. she got frighteningly sick tho, and he's been there to help her out and such....i'm not the jealous type so i'm not really taking offense or anything. it's just really sad to see someone so sick, and not be able to even say get better without having something thrown at me or what not.
worse yet he was supposed to go over there tonite....he was with me all day and i had to work so it wasn't really anything....said he wasn't going to but i'm sure he got talked into it anyway....but now he won't answer my phone calls.....and didn't call when he said he was going to. i hate being flaked on...not that i would have to called, but if you say you're going to do something just do it! anyway, i fear he fell asleep at her house...he won't call me from her phone because she gets angry fast....i'm not afraid that he's cheating or anything lyke that..but it's totally inappropriate...i mean how would he feel if i passed out at my ex-fiance's house?????? probably something lyke
or .
so bleck...that's all i have to say...
actually i should probably say that i'm actually doing relatively well, despite everyone around me having bad luck. i hope you all are doing good as well <3
<3
-->deviance
recipeforhate:
I hope things get better for you too dear!!
averagebadfriend:
It sounds like you need inner stength!Let me help(dun da dun da na dun dun da! 
)Dump his ass!You are cool and look great so his loss you can find some one who is not with some one else as in even if he says he is with you now and not her he is playing you for a fool trust me I am a guy I know so unless you like groupe sex dump that bum!Let Mr.right find you!Be you'r self and you will have guys asking you out all the time!If I was not such a creep and lived in Ken....whatever I know I would be all hey there lady lets go to a bar!(SLAP!!! maybe a bar is a bad choice-ha ha ha)I hope you take my advice because this is the longest message I have ever written! 
)Dump his ass!You are cool and look great so his loss you can find some one who is not with some one else as in even if he says he is with you now and not her he is playing you for a fool trust me I am a guy I know so unless you like groupe sex dump that bum!Let Mr.right find you!Be you'r self and you will have guys asking you out all the time!If I was not such a creep and lived in Ken....whatever I know I would be all hey there lady lets go to a bar!(SLAP!!! maybe a bar is a bad choice-ha ha ha)I hope you take my advice because this is the longest message I have ever written!