i'm so topsy turvy! last night [well, early this morning], i was crying like a little bitch about the intense loneliness i feel. and how i have no one to talk to. and now, i am feeling good.
i think i will go to That One Place and get a raspberry chai tea. then go to ricky and shanna's. and probably watch ricky play DBZ 2. i am just waiting for him to finish that damn game so we can play some halo2 and Suffering. i even remembered to bring over some xbox controllers last night! and we didn't even play any halo2!
[sigh]. i have to take pj to work now.
i think i will talk to ricky today about all these things that have been bothering me. it's not good to hold this all in. i lose sleep over it, and lose my appetite over it. and then i start to get headaches and stomachaches on a daily basis. and, for some reason, i think he is as hateful and fucked up as i am to see what i am feeling.
i think i will go to That One Place and get a raspberry chai tea. then go to ricky and shanna's. and probably watch ricky play DBZ 2. i am just waiting for him to finish that damn game so we can play some halo2 and Suffering. i even remembered to bring over some xbox controllers last night! and we didn't even play any halo2!
[sigh]. i have to take pj to work now.
i think i will talk to ricky today about all these things that have been bothering me. it's not good to hold this all in. i lose sleep over it, and lose my appetite over it. and then i start to get headaches and stomachaches on a daily basis. and, for some reason, i think he is as hateful and fucked up as i am to see what i am feeling.
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
you must be soo proud.. i am sorry that you are having a hard time.. emotions are supposed to go crazy after giving birth, but it will all settle down!! just look around you are realise how amazing your life is at the moment!!!
you should defiently talk to him about it!!
Thankyou for your birthday wishes btw!!!
good luck with everything sweetie and look after yourself!
Formerly Sockmonkeyman
Write me