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Monday Jun 14, 2004

Jun 14, 2004
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pj leaves tonight.

what am i to do without my pedro the lion? i know it seems foolish and wrong, but he is my happiness. without him, i am emptier than i already feel, and without him, the inside of me walks around in a daze.

it's wrong to make him my happiness, and to live for him when i should live for myself, but i have lost all parts of myself that belonged to me. and so all i am is a shell filled with love for him. i feel nothing anymore except love at times, for him. and sometimes i can't even feel that.

he leaves tonight, and i wish to follow. it is my choice now. it lies in my hands. but all the roads lead to broken hearts. my mother's broken heart, my broken heart, his broken heart.

two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and i...

and i just sat there like a fucking fool.
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vader_____:
Damn you are back!
Jun 14, 2004
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dates are fun.. you just gotta get into the whole spirit.. i like blind dates.. cause there's no pressure what soever...
Jun 15, 2004

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