i'm so topsy turvy! last night [well, early this morning], i was crying like a little bitch about the intense loneliness i feel. and how i have no one to talk to. and now, i am feeling good.
i think i will go to That One Place and get a raspberry chai tea. then go to ricky and shanna's. and probably watch ricky play DBZ...
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i think i will go to That One Place and get a raspberry chai tea. then go to ricky and shanna's. and probably watch ricky play DBZ...
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life is bland, empty, almost devoid of meaning. i feel like a zombie, waking up when i have to wake up, moving around in this cold state. my heart feels so empty, and so quick to be filled with hate and anger, but so slow to be filled with patience and compassion. life slips through my fingers everyday. where am i going? what am i...
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somethin1919:
that's some depressing stuff there. As if I wrote it or something. 
Anyway, I swear I am going to write an update in a sec. I just had nothing to say and then too much and no time to write. So now that I have time I will crank something out.
Hope you feel better.
Anyway, I swear I am going to write an update in a sec. I just had nothing to say and then too much and no time to write. So now that I have time I will crank something out.
Hope you feel better.
october:
stay strong, things will get better *hug*
long days and long nights.
of course that's how it would be, right?
of course that's how it would be, right?
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switchcomb:
So I can own!
laptop_romeo:
That's how it is. But it's worth it, isn't it?
happy birthday to me. yay!
time to go. i've got to take a shower, and i think my baby is waking up.
catch you guys on the FLIP SIDE.
[cheesin' real hard]
time to go. i've got to take a shower, and i think my baby is waking up.
catch you guys on the FLIP SIDE.
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laptop_romeo:
Ah, the real question is who's lap I am on top of...
somethin1919:
Happy birthday! Mine is Saturday....
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switchcomb:
Happy Birthday! You arent so young anymore! 
Sorry Emilia and I cant be there in person to wish you a happy birthday.
Sorry Emilia and I cant be there in person to wish you a happy birthday.
switchcomb:
Which one do you want?
Old School Happy Birthday
or
New School Happy Birthday
[Edited on Dec 06, 2004 9:15AM]
Old School Happy Birthday
or
New School Happy Birthday
[Edited on Dec 06, 2004 9:15AM]
i think i'm getting the postpartum depression now...
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emma35:
ya i imagine you are quite the sore...and being cut there does NOT sound like fun. However, I'm heard that the healing is much better if they go ahead and make an incision that if they don't and you end up getting basically ripped open. So I hope you have a speedy recovery and I hope they gave you lots of pain meds geez! Anyway, how is baby Zao? Is she quiet or does she cry a lot?
icantplayguitar:
you should try whistling.
whew. what a weekend. i am finally updating. i'm not really tired at all, so oh well. little Zao is sleeping, so i could be sleeping, too, but i'm hungry and i have phone calls to make and appointments to schedule and BLAH BLAH BLAH.
here's the details: went into labor after we got home from Blitz [day-after-thanksgiving sale at walmart]. the contractions didn't hurt...
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here's the details: went into labor after we got home from Blitz [day-after-thanksgiving sale at walmart]. the contractions didn't hurt...
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xie:
you have a baby? wow, congratulations! for you + for Zao.
<3
for you + for Zao.
<3
somethin1919:
Congrats and good luck!!!
thanksgiving passed and still no baby. heh, i am now one day overdue.
hooray!
hooray!
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icantplayguitar:
babies are like ketchup, not really, but if that makes you feel better, then they most definately are.
icantplayguitar:
except you hit them on the bottom after they come out.
i'm at ricky and shanna's. we had a nice thanksgiving dinner with ricky's side of the family. i guess we are almost like family to them, so it counts. we are having thanksgiving with pj's family on thursday [plus Lily, since we will be watching her]. i am so full of food and pies. somehow we ended up with 2304823490283 pies at Corina's house.
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laptop_romeo:
you need a babyclothes wishlist...
thevagrant:
dude where are pictures of el babies ?
oh, to see my feet again...
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emma35:
hehe you're silly 
thevagrant:
congratulations
it's time for an update, dammit!
whew. i will be 39 weeks on thursday. the time is passing quickly. too bad i am so sick, i am not enjoying anything anymore. it would be so nice to be pregnant and not feel like shit. i blame whoever gave me this sickness. hopefully i can get some antibiotics today to help me out or something. we...
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whew. i will be 39 weeks on thursday. the time is passing quickly. too bad i am so sick, i am not enjoying anything anymore. it would be so nice to be pregnant and not feel like shit. i blame whoever gave me this sickness. hopefully i can get some antibiotics today to help me out or something. we...
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wirlwind:
what you talkin bout....i don't do drugs, i just smoke week 
laptop_romeo:
Feel better. Be safe.
wow. we are a bunch of sick losers. it's so sad. i am definitely going into work today. it's only four hours i have to work. stupid sickness...
i have nothing else to comment on, really.
two more weeks until i'm due...two weeks.
they are passing by slowly!
i have nothing else to comment on, really.
two more weeks until i'm due...two weeks.
they are passing by slowly!
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germ13:
I know the baby's going to be beautiful.
Just look at it's mother
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Just look at it's mother
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siara:
WOW... two weeks!!!!! how exciting!!!!!!!
I LOVE the name you have chosen.. Zao Marie Avila .. it is soo cute!!! Good luck sweetie!!!!!!
XX
how exciting!!!!!!!
I LOVE the name you have chosen.. Zao Marie Avila .. it is soo cute!!! Good luck sweetie!!!!!!
XX
you must be soo proud.. i am sorry that you are having a hard time.. emotions are supposed to go crazy after giving birth, but it will all settle down!! just look around you are realise how amazing your life is at the moment!!!
you should defiently talk to him about it!!
Thankyou for your birthday wishes btw!!!
good luck with everything sweetie and look after yourself!
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