destro

i will never give up
i will never give in
on something that i beleive is so true.
till i take my last breath.
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i did something thismorning i swore i would never do again.
after making a stupid choice to try something i felt i had to do , i returned with my tail between my legs.
i sat down and talked with my father. i cried in front of him. i swore 10 years ago to never let him see a drop from my eyes. but i am at my last end. i had no where else to turn.
he is the last person i want to talk to anything about, lest this. but it had to come out, and no one was there to listen.
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Potentially there's no safety
Inside these walls, I'm forced to be

Unprotected to cruelty
I'm not at my own mercy

The most important time in my life
Is governed by an unstable mind

On another I depend
My own life I can't defend



Incarcerated and force-fed
Your disparity a constant threat

Are you qualified to reign?
Is my destruction pre-ordained?

I am not a parasite
Will I be punished by your spite?

I await my destiny
And possibly your enmity


Completely under your dominion
I'm not here of my own volition, no


I'm locked away, a nonentity
Sacrificed by antipathy

My pleas aren't heard
So I'm tortured

It's perilous in this domain
And I'm dead if I remain

I pray that you
Don't cause my doom...

Will I survive?
To see the day arrive
When I am cast forth
And endangered nevermore