desra

It must be my pills.....But lately, I have felt weirder everyday in general. Everything is awkward and claustraphobic. I feel caged in, vulnerable, and depressed. I have become my own best friend. I talk myself to sleep. It's getting crazy. I feel like I can't SPEAK OUT LOUD. Useless. I do nothing. I want do to something. But I can't because there is nothing to do. I freak out easily and have too many panic attacks. Right now I'm sitting here motionless other than the typing movements, staring wide eyed at hte screen. If anyone saw me I'd look completely calm and fine, but inside right now I'm FREAKING out. This is weird.