Okay, this is the last time I will ask you guys about it.
As most of you know, I'm gonna sendin a set soon, and I think that I need a less bulky name, just b/c DespairFactor is really long, and bulky. Anywayes, I've narrowed it down to two choices:
1.) Ceilidh (It's prounoced Kay-lee, and it means party in Gaelic)
OR
2.) DespairFactor
So...
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As most of you know, I'm gonna sendin a set soon, and I think that I need a less bulky name, just b/c DespairFactor is really long, and bulky. Anywayes, I've narrowed it down to two choices:
1.) Ceilidh (It's prounoced Kay-lee, and it means party in Gaelic)
OR
2.) DespairFactor
So...
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EDIT: This predicts the ideal job for you. Supposidly I'm supposed to be a pirate!! YARRRR.... what about you matey?
Sugestions for names:
1.) Regina
2.) DespairFactor
3.) Holly Hooters or Heidi Honkers (thanks MetalEric
)
4.) Despair
and those are the ones that have been suggested... I'd like to hear more if you have any!!
And then the thoughts I have had:
1.) Beya...
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Sugestions for names:
1.) Regina
2.) DespairFactor
3.) Holly Hooters or Heidi Honkers (thanks MetalEric
)
4.) Despair
and those are the ones that have been suggested... I'd like to hear more if you have any!!
And then the thoughts I have had:
1.) Beya...
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metaleric:
OOH, yeah. Dye it black. Rawr! 
x_doug_x:
the girl i'm "seeing" is driving me insane. she's my best friends cousin, we met a little over a month ago at his wedding and we've gone out once and it was fun. but she is a student teacher and always really busy with grading and lesson planning and stuff, so i never get to see her and its making me crazy. we were supposed to go out last weekend, but she was busy friday, i was busy saturday and then i ended up waking up with a cold friday morning. so all plans were off, i didnt want her to catch my cold.
now, she told me upfront that this was kind of a bad time in her life cuz of her job, she isnt sure if she will like teaching and stick with it or find somethign else. and if she stays in teaching she's not so sure she will be able to find something full time. she's also willing to move away if that what it takes, so she doesnt want anything serious right now. i understood all this, and was prepared to hang in and wait things out and see how they go. she wanted just to keep things light and fun, but how can we do that if i cant ever see her?
i'm also a very negative person and always think the worst, so in the back of my mind i'm thinking that she doenst like me and doesnt want to see me. i hope thats not the case.
i'd like to tell her all these things and how i feel, but i dont wanna do it in an email or over the phone, i'd like to do it in person, but i cant do taht if we never go out. i'm also very shy and probably wouldnt be able to say what i want to anyway. i dont know, theres just so much confusion, i wish i knew how she felt.
all i know is that she is smart and beautiful and almost everything i'm looking for and i cant stop thinking about her.
but hey thanks for letting me ramble here, sometimes its easier to open up to someone you dont know.
oh well, back to being a superhero top gun pilot
now, she told me upfront that this was kind of a bad time in her life cuz of her job, she isnt sure if she will like teaching and stick with it or find somethign else. and if she stays in teaching she's not so sure she will be able to find something full time. she's also willing to move away if that what it takes, so she doesnt want anything serious right now. i understood all this, and was prepared to hang in and wait things out and see how they go. she wanted just to keep things light and fun, but how can we do that if i cant ever see her?
i'm also a very negative person and always think the worst, so in the back of my mind i'm thinking that she doenst like me and doesnt want to see me. i hope thats not the case.
i'd like to tell her all these things and how i feel, but i dont wanna do it in an email or over the phone, i'd like to do it in person, but i cant do taht if we never go out. i'm also very shy and probably wouldnt be able to say what i want to anyway. i dont know, theres just so much confusion, i wish i knew how she felt.
all i know is that she is smart and beautiful and almost everything i'm looking for and i cant stop thinking about her.
but hey thanks for letting me ramble here, sometimes its easier to open up to someone you dont know.
oh well, back to being a superhero top gun pilot
Okay, here we go:
-I get very bitter sweet when I see new sets go up. Bitter b/c I'm stupid, and haven't taken my set yet, sweet, b/c, well they are sweet sets.
-I haven't taken my set, b/c the shirt I wanted to wear is lost, I am sick and red noses are not sexy) and I need to do some... er.. womanly stuff......
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-I get very bitter sweet when I see new sets go up. Bitter b/c I'm stupid, and haven't taken my set yet, sweet, b/c, well they are sweet sets.
-I haven't taken my set, b/c the shirt I wanted to wear is lost, I am sick and red noses are not sexy) and I need to do some... er.. womanly stuff......
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baddog_ar:
she's flattered and some of the feelings are returned back. we click well. but it is not the time. Have a good one, Despair. Later. 
sarin04:
Wow,you're physiotherapist.And he's 30!!??That's weird dude.Whatever,i have a friend that tried to get on vanilla ice when he came through here so that's probably worse.I can't believe you don't like the new Used cd.At first i didn't either but damn,it's so good.Especially "i caught fire".Give it a chance,i bet it'll grow on you.
I was just in Regina last weekend and i saw a poster for a Catch 22 show.Man that would've kicked ass.Did you go by any chance or do you even like catch 22?
Anyway,i'll have my picture up in the next couple days so you can see who you're talking to.It's way better when you know what the person looks like that you're writing to.Have a good night.
p.s what do you think of the new Nightwish cd.*gag*
I was just in Regina last weekend and i saw a poster for a Catch 22 show.Man that would've kicked ass.Did you go by any chance or do you even like catch 22?
Anyway,i'll have my picture up in the next couple days so you can see who you're talking to.It's way better when you know what the person looks like that you're writing to.Have a good night.
p.s what do you think of the new Nightwish cd.*gag*
So University practices have started today! YEAH! Oh wait... no yeah. Fucken eh, I'm so damn rusty! It sucks. Last year, I was all pro-star, knowing where my arms, hands, legs, and feet were supposed to go. And now, I'm all gangly and floppy, and just a big mess on the mat. Oh well. I'll just get better as time goes on I guess.
Anywhos......
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cai:
astigmatism sucks. lol. yeah i have a slight astigmatism too, but not bad enough to stop me from wearing them. they're just the trial kind, with no power to them, so i still wear my glasses too.
i'll try violet next.
i'll try violet next.
cambria:
10 Bands You Have Seen Live:
-Coheed&Cambria
-The Murder Junkies
-Deftones
-ReelBigFish
-Thursday
-Thrice
-AntiFlag
-Incubus
-Damien Rice
-The Used
9 Things You Are Looking Forward To:
-Ending heartache
-Beating a guy up just once
-Seeing Co&Ca again
-Seeing my set go live
-Going back to work in the winter
-Going to FL next semester
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8 Things You Wear Daily:
-Contacts or Glasses
-Septum ring
-at least one earring
-clothes
-shoes
-makeup often
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7 Things That Annoy You:
-Guys that are too dramatic
-Whiskey
-my photo 3 professor
-really bad pop music
-the smell of latex
-when someone isnt listening
-my mom and i bitching at each other
6 Things You Touch Everyday:
-ibook
-a cd
-dorm key
-cell phone
-toothbrush
-my sweet bed
5 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:
-haggard
-bladerunner
-jackass
-16 candles
-requiem for a dream
4 People You Want to Spend More Time With:
-Hardy
-Lee
-Jeff
-Jana
3 CD's You Last Listened To:
-Atreyu "The Curse"
-Damien Rice live
-Everytime I Die "Hot Damn!"
2 Favorite Songs:
-Atreyu "This Flesh a Tomb"
-Co&Ca "Time Consumer"
1 Person You Could Spend The Rest of Your Life With:
-my best friend who i love so much, Hardy
-Coheed&Cambria
-The Murder Junkies
-Deftones
-ReelBigFish
-Thursday
-Thrice
-AntiFlag
-Incubus
-Damien Rice
-The Used
9 Things You Are Looking Forward To:
-Ending heartache
-Beating a guy up just once
-Seeing Co&Ca again
-Seeing my set go live
-Going back to work in the winter
-Going to FL next semester
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-
-
8 Things You Wear Daily:
-Contacts or Glasses
-Septum ring
-at least one earring
-clothes
-shoes
-makeup often
-
-
7 Things That Annoy You:
-Guys that are too dramatic
-Whiskey
-my photo 3 professor
-really bad pop music
-the smell of latex
-when someone isnt listening
-my mom and i bitching at each other
6 Things You Touch Everyday:
-ibook
-a cd
-dorm key
-cell phone
-toothbrush
-my sweet bed
5 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:
-haggard
-bladerunner
-jackass
-16 candles
-requiem for a dream
4 People You Want to Spend More Time With:
-Hardy
-Lee
-Jeff
-Jana
3 CD's You Last Listened To:
-Atreyu "The Curse"
-Damien Rice live
-Everytime I Die "Hot Damn!"
2 Favorite Songs:
-Atreyu "This Flesh a Tomb"
-Co&Ca "Time Consumer"
1 Person You Could Spend The Rest of Your Life With:
-my best friend who i love so much, Hardy
I love The Used .... I really really do.
And this CD comes out on the 28th. Must buy it. Although this single isn't as good as their last CD. But mayhaps the rest of their new album will be better. What do you all think!?
Anywho... yeah... I don't really have much to update, just thought I should since I haven't for about 4...
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And this CD comes out on the 28th. Must buy it. Although this single isn't as good as their last CD. But mayhaps the rest of their new album will be better. What do you all think!?
Anywho... yeah... I don't really have much to update, just thought I should since I haven't for about 4...
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holymackerel:
good lord girl your so hot! that is a very distracting profile pic homina homina phew gotta go
have a good one cutie
have a good one cutie
xador:
Oh my fingers have been crossed since you first mentioned it And yes you were very close on the song!! I looked up regina out of curiosity because my one and only trip to canada put me in medicine hat. I want to check out toronto and Big V.Any other points of intrest in OH Canada your home and native land?
And yes you were very close on the song!! I looked up regina out of curiosity because my one and only trip to canada put me in medicine hat. I want to check out toronto and Big V.Any other points of intrest in OH Canada your home and native land?Back toooo schoooool... back tooo schooooool...
ARG. Okay, not arg, because I was SO bored not being at school. But yeah, this year is kinda stupid if you ask me. I have two history classes one right after the other. And for both of them I have to write a 12-15 page essay that are both due on Nov.9th... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
And then I also have...
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ARG. Okay, not arg, because I was SO bored not being at school. But yeah, this year is kinda stupid if you ask me. I have two history classes one right after the other. And for both of them I have to write a 12-15 page essay that are both due on Nov.9th... WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!
And then I also have...
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baddog_ar:
just saying hi, and hope that you are having a good weekend.
killgannon:
film
Ovida went up today. And damn, she looks gorgeous.
Now I REALLY wanna get my set taken, and accepted, if all goes to plan.
I'm taking the set as soon as my tattoo has healed... and then everything will be great. OH, and I need to buy grey grampa pants, and black suspenders... Must get on that too
And toneski, here's some old school...
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Now I REALLY wanna get my set taken, and accepted, if all goes to plan.
I'm taking the set as soon as my tattoo has healed... and then everything will be great. OH, and I need to buy grey grampa pants, and black suspenders... Must get on that too
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geeksuicide:
we need a despairfactor on despairfactor a la scagnetti on scagnetti!
bad_little_colee:
hope you set gets accepted! it should be great!
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[Edited on Sep 08, 2004 11:32AM]
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recipeforhate:
awesome.
angelus_am_i:
*kicks you in your junk*
and i know you have it...i saw it hanging out your slutty skirt today
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and i know you have it...i saw it hanging out your slutty skirt today
[Edited on Sep 05, 2004 5:05PM]
LESS THAN 24 HOURS TILL I GET MY TATTOO!
I'm nervous
Lyric
"Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person, and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much? So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze. It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions and to scream confessions at the insipid...
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I'm nervous
Lyric
"Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person, and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much? So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze. It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions and to scream confessions at the insipid...
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martinitheace:
I hope the tatty went well!!! And good luck with the job situation! Schools more important than most things, despite what my actions may imply
doctorspooky:
I never said it was good, the cookie dough bits plugged up the straw and all the chocolate bits sunk to the bottom. 
All in all I think vanilla ice cream would've been a much better choice as well. but you gotta work with what you got.
All in all I think vanilla ice cream would've been a much better choice as well. but you gotta work with what you got.
So for the first time in 4 years (except for the two days after I had been fired from Tony Roma's), I will be jobless.
I'm super iffy on that.
I know that with school and wrestling, I probably shouldn't have a job, even if I am only working weekends. And my parents even said that they would give me $100.00 a month if I...
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I'm super iffy on that.
I know that with school and wrestling, I probably shouldn't have a job, even if I am only working weekends. And my parents even said that they would give me $100.00 a month if I...
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murdokk:
You are so much like me! Plus you are so cute I want to bite you!!
scagnetti:
Dear Despair,
I dont love wrestling like I used to due in part
to the other martial arts I was taking while I was grappling.
Used to get in trouble all the time for unorthodox moves
that I incorporated into my technique
although legal on the matt,Refs would give me warnings or point deductions for being original !
It became too limited as I was evolving .
I guess I became more combat oriented over the Sport aspect.
Dont get me wrong,
I still love a good tie up!
I just like pressure points and vital disruption
over the half nelson.
P.s. in 4 years of wrestling Win or lose
I always got first takedown.
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I dont love wrestling like I used to due in part
to the other martial arts I was taking while I was grappling.
Used to get in trouble all the time for unorthodox moves
that I incorporated into my technique
although legal on the matt,Refs would give me warnings or point deductions for being original !
It became too limited as I was evolving .
I guess I became more combat oriented over the Sport aspect.
Dont get me wrong,
I still love a good tie up!
I just like pressure points and vital disruption
over the half nelson.
P.s. in 4 years of wrestling Win or lose
I always got first takedown.
[Edited on Sep 02, 2004 1:46PM]
So quiet another wasted night, the television steals the conversation exhale, another wasted breath, again it goes unnoticed.
Please tell me you're just feeling tired cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break out of touch, out of time. Please send me anything but signals that are mixed cause I can't read your rolling eyes out of touch, are we out of time?
(DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL-Again I Go Unnoticed)