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Sunday Jul 31, 2005

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I hate how I'm not allowed to feel anything... how everything that upsets me is wrong or stupid...
I hate how my sister gets special treatment because "she has problems"
I hate how my parents don't even care that their other daughter is crying out for attention
I hate how no one cares how "strong independant" me is feeling
I hate how when I try to talk about it, I get told that "we don't need this right now" or "your sister needs you to be strong"
I hate how my sister is a FUCKING STUPID BITCH... who actually deserves the way I treated her this morning, because the world does NOT revolve around her... regardless of what she thinks
I hate how everything in this family revolves around her and how she is feeling...so you have an anxiety disoder...HEY... at least they care about you!
I hate how "she doesn't need this right now".... what... does she think that I like feeling like no one cares about me.... I don't need THAT right now.
I hate how my feelings have never mattered...
I hate how my parents ignore me whenever my sister is around
I hate my sister's "problem".... I hate who she has become
I hate being in my house, around them.

I just want to get away... or for her to go away... I can't wait until she moves to Saskatoon.... then I don't have to worry about treading on her toes anymore.. lest I should accidently offend her by telling her to leave me alone. I'm sorry that I don't like getting yelled at because you are all knowing, and a stupid little fucked up kid.
And by the way... you hit me first. PSYCHO....
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angelus_am_i:
of course ur jealous, everyone is
Aug 3, 2005
unit12:
This likely is not what you want to hear but your sister does need you to be strong right now. Your freinds on the other hand to not. Be strong for her but don't be afraid to turn around right away and cry on the shoulders of those that are there for you. Even us stron independent ones only have so much strength.
Aug 4, 2005

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