Okay, first of all.... I'm sorry to everyone who I did not reply to. A lot of the comments were "Oh I hope you are feeling alright" and I didn't know what to write back to that. So don't hate me... I still love you!!
And second, I am being SWAMPED by life... I am surprised I've got a second to myself right now. Just to let you all know... I've had midterms, essays, morning sprints/runs (that were on Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday -- 6:00am), wrestling practice twice a day, coaching, school, and work. So I have been SO FUCKING BUSY... hence the none updating/commenting.
But once again... I still love you all!!!
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Sometimes I get trapped in the thought that this is how I'm supposed to feel, so that is how I feel. But then I stop to think about it, and I know that my feelings are false, and that my heart was never yours. I can't help that I don't know how to feel, no one has ever let me, and the only time I genuiely loved someone, I broke my heart. I'm only a frightened little girl, waiting for someone to love
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"Her Name In Blood"
Mother Mary bury me in a place they'll never find
I kill only what I love and what I love was never mine
suffocate you outta me your the darkest of my sins
you're burnin' thru my head don't know where I begin
and where you end your breathless violence
open veins in silence and devotion sacred and devine in this love that makes me
it's the hurt that moves me to betray you evertime you pull me near
GIVE IT AWAY GIVE IT AWAY RIDE THIS BITCH TO HELL
And blow a kiss
when you only think of me
hold my hand and fuck away this blankness of expression
and all sorrows in between her name in blood
and her eyes on me her deepest secret lies
in front of me a whisper now is all that remains of me
you're the center of my unholy shrine
scar tissue in time you're all mine
your the last hint of self-control
my last chance just walked out the door
drown out your artery straight thru a love that would never be her name in blood
and her eyes on me her deepest secret lies
in front of me a whisper now is all that remains of me
this sacrament is our punishment
I am the worst part of you
you are the only thing left to burn
~~ Strung Out
And second, I am being SWAMPED by life... I am surprised I've got a second to myself right now. Just to let you all know... I've had midterms, essays, morning sprints/runs (that were on Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday -- 6:00am), wrestling practice twice a day, coaching, school, and work. So I have been SO FUCKING BUSY... hence the none updating/commenting.
But once again... I still love you all!!!
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Sometimes I get trapped in the thought that this is how I'm supposed to feel, so that is how I feel. But then I stop to think about it, and I know that my feelings are false, and that my heart was never yours. I can't help that I don't know how to feel, no one has ever let me, and the only time I genuiely loved someone, I broke my heart. I'm only a frightened little girl, waiting for someone to love
-----
"Her Name In Blood"
Mother Mary bury me in a place they'll never find
I kill only what I love and what I love was never mine
suffocate you outta me your the darkest of my sins
you're burnin' thru my head don't know where I begin
and where you end your breathless violence
open veins in silence and devotion sacred and devine in this love that makes me
it's the hurt that moves me to betray you evertime you pull me near
GIVE IT AWAY GIVE IT AWAY RIDE THIS BITCH TO HELL
And blow a kiss
when you only think of me
hold my hand and fuck away this blankness of expression
and all sorrows in between her name in blood
and her eyes on me her deepest secret lies
in front of me a whisper now is all that remains of me
you're the center of my unholy shrine
scar tissue in time you're all mine
your the last hint of self-control
my last chance just walked out the door
drown out your artery straight thru a love that would never be her name in blood
and her eyes on me her deepest secret lies
in front of me a whisper now is all that remains of me
this sacrament is our punishment
I am the worst part of you
you are the only thing left to burn
~~ Strung Out
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so besides your business... whats the haps on how the girl is doing?
I'm glad to hear you're still coming at all, and thanks for keeping me informed....I still don't know if the Winnipegers are coming, same with Amadeus, because he won't answer me
I have a confession...i'm really excited about Saturday, but I'm deathly scared that my party is going to suck monkey nuts....like really scared....