despairfactor

I'm burning every thought, every word, and every lyric. To deny you is to deny my heart, but as we know, you must be destroyed. My eyes no longer have their luster, and I am no longer pure. You stole my innocence and you stole my heart. And now someone wants it. Someone true, and good. Someone who loves me, and is not afraid to love me. I can't give him my heart because you still hold it, and you run. I need to return to normal, but you are stopping me, so now I must destroy you. I will destroy every memory of you, every thought of you, and every thing I ever felt for you.

If you had not been so afraid, had not been so ashamed, I would never have to do this. You and I will never understand, never realize. We never will be. I'm moving on to happiness by destroying my true joy.

I took your poision, and I did it willingly, and loveingly. I trusted you with blades against my wrists. There will be no better tomorrow, and no mended images. We will forever be enemies. Those who have loved and lost, all because of your simple fear. And now life leads us elsewhere, and we will never make amends

In saying my goodbyes, I am saying goodbye to myself. I am breaking my own heart. The one you already broke for me. I need to destroy you, and in destroying you, I destroy myself, but I am destroying him. So I'll leave us, you and I in ashes, hoping that maybe, I'll be able to love again, hoping that he and I will find love. And then you can rest alone in ashes.
Goodbye, I love you. Forever and a day






UPDATE NOVEMBER 3RD
Yeah, I need to update. Anywho, I added some pics to my friendlies folder, go look!
I'm redoing my set, all I need is to buy some red red lipstick, and some razor blades. Ooooh scandalous
Lyric
"You hold this place inside my head you're a symphony of hurt. The daylight passes through me to another crippled verse. Been here once before and I know exactly where it ends; right back where we started pain dead flowers on the bed" ~~ Strung Out - Anna Lee