So I was talking to the always wonderful, and adorable Yuriel yesterday, and we were discussing love, and how it can cause one to become cynical and jaded. A bad experience in love can break your heart, and sometimes make you afraid of love. Or else you can think you will never find love, and so just give up on it entirely.
My biggest fear is that the "one" person that I ultimately want to be with, won't want to be with me. What do you do in this situation?
Do you accept the fact that you will never, ever be able to have the one thing that your enitre body, mind, soul and heart yearns for, and settle for second best? Or do you just give up on love entirly and decide to never love again?
If you decide to take the first route, and settle for second best, is it fair to that person? That they are only the person second closest to your heart.. especially when you are closest to theirs?
Is it fair to yourself or them that you are actually living a lie, and that your heart doesn't, and never will belong to them? Is it fair to do this, just because they do make you happy, and you don't want to be lonely... even though you know you will never love them as much as you love the "one". You love them for who they are, but you will never be IN love with them. Does this seem fair?
Or do you opt for the second route, and banish yourself to a life of loneliness and abandoment, all b/c you don't want to lie to anyone else. You know your heart will never be able to love again, so why bother.
That is my biggest fear.
Lyric
"Why do I even bother? I should have learned from the past. I am but a statue, impervious to love. This punctured heart is mine, Becomes a handful of dust. Hope has now wilted away. Along with these dreams That became emptiness.... One simple wish now dies. Was my request so great? One simple wish now dies. Once again I drown in its denial. Was it so complicated? Once again. I've been spit upon. Taken with a grain of salt, my life is" ~~ Posion the Well - Grain of Salt
In case you missed it from yesterday Look here.. I'M NAKED!
My biggest fear is that the "one" person that I ultimately want to be with, won't want to be with me. What do you do in this situation?
Do you accept the fact that you will never, ever be able to have the one thing that your enitre body, mind, soul and heart yearns for, and settle for second best? Or do you just give up on love entirly and decide to never love again?
If you decide to take the first route, and settle for second best, is it fair to that person? That they are only the person second closest to your heart.. especially when you are closest to theirs?
Is it fair to yourself or them that you are actually living a lie, and that your heart doesn't, and never will belong to them? Is it fair to do this, just because they do make you happy, and you don't want to be lonely... even though you know you will never love them as much as you love the "one". You love them for who they are, but you will never be IN love with them. Does this seem fair?
Or do you opt for the second route, and banish yourself to a life of loneliness and abandoment, all b/c you don't want to lie to anyone else. You know your heart will never be able to love again, so why bother.
That is my biggest fear.
Lyric
"Why do I even bother? I should have learned from the past. I am but a statue, impervious to love. This punctured heart is mine, Becomes a handful of dust. Hope has now wilted away. Along with these dreams That became emptiness.... One simple wish now dies. Was my request so great? One simple wish now dies. Once again I drown in its denial. Was it so complicated? Once again. I've been spit upon. Taken with a grain of salt, my life is" ~~ Posion the Well - Grain of Salt
In case you missed it from yesterday Look here.. I'M NAKED!
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Just wondering cause sometimes things may get out of hand at our gatherings. lol Wouldn't want to freak out your parents!
ya a house gathering would be a good idea...naked monopoly?