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Thursday Mar 09, 2006

Mar 9, 2006
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So kiddies.... guess whos got the flu!?

THIS CAT!! (ie moi)

it's almost gone now, but I've still got this NASTY NASTY cough where I sound like I'm barking like a seal (stupid ashtma) and as is such, it hurts to breathe in.

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Anyways, due to being sick, I've missed a whole WEEK of my pre-internship (that's where people who are going to be teachers go and teach stuff for three weeks).... I was at the first week, not at the second week, and hopefully will be better for the third week.
I'm just worried how its gonna affect my evaluation and stuff, cuz we're not really supposed to miss any of it (i've got a doctors note thought, so suck it).... but :S I'm a little nervous.

Speaking of teaching... I'm not so sure its what I REALLY want to be doing for the rest of my life. I enjoy it.... for the most party... I LOVE the content that I will get to teach.... but.... well I'm just getting FRUSTRATED.... cuz I am having a really hard time coming up with exciting ways to teach this stuff.
It's hard... REALLY hard.... and I don't like hard things. I've come to realize that about myself.
Maybe I should just suck it up, and keep trying.
Wait, I should make a distinction here... I LIKE challenging things... but I don't like hard things.
Is there even a difference between those two?

Anyways... regardless.... I feel like I'm going through some sort of crisis here... I'm not fully sold on teaching. Shouldn't I just LOVE it? Not be feeling kinda wishy washy about it?
It's really hard to explain what I mean.
I'm just not sure that teaching is what I want to do... but then when I think about it, I do want to teach... but if I think about it more, I don't.
I'm effed up!!

And y'all are probably thinking I'm crazy cuz I'm only 20 but hey.... I'll be CONVOCATING this time NEXT YEAR..... (granted I'll be back in school for another semester getting my SECOND degree in history)
So I think it's okay for me to be worrying about this stuff. I figure I'll just try and get through my internship (thats when I get a class to call my own) and we'll see how I feel about it then... confused confused confused

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rpg:
Asthenia's a sweetie as you well know! I do wish she lived here so we could all see her more often.

It was a real pleasure to meet TokyoSeven as well. He's a great guy!

I hope you can get up to ToomTown to visit them sometime too.
Mar 17, 2006
applejax:
Thanks, I like my eyes sometimes toosmile

History degree, what will I do with it...no cluesmile I'll end up with a double major in history and religious studies, and it just happened that my honours will be in history. I actually wouldn't mind working on campus, but I guess I really don't know...its ever so terribly muddling frown
Mar 17, 2006

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