Soooooo...... almost a month of no updates.
I just feel so apathetic and frsutrated with life right now.... and as is such, have no desire to go on MSN, update on here, reply to emails, or talk on the phone.... I don't really want to do anything.
Well, I wanna sit and watch TV.. and have some time to myself. That's about it.
Ever since wrestling started after Christmas, I've been feeling so blah, and its gotten worse since school has started again.
I get up at 7:00, go to school until 4:30, and then go to practice until 7:30ish, eat supper, and go to bed.
I'm not exciting, and this schedual is pissing me off.
Even more so, is the fact that I never see my bestest friend anymore.
We have to plan our get togethers like 6 weeks in advance. How pathetic is that?
And one of the sad things is that I should be missing her, but I don't. I have all these really cool new friends (who are in all of my classes (in education, we're with the same people all the time)) and they're pretty swank. And they take up most of my time (as well as the people on my wrestling team)....... I dunno.
It's just weird, I think, because I have all these new people in my life... whereas I used to only have my best friend, and my boy friend. Now I've got a billion other people.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this entry.... lol
But seriously, I think that I'm the type of person who does well with one or two good friends, and now I've got about 15 new friends, and I'm overwhelmed... and stressed.... hahaha.
But yeah, I feel like I'm not even friends with my bestest anymore.
And the same with my BF... I feel like I don't even know him anymore.... like I'm so disconnected from him. I don't like it. I don't enjoy this seperation I'm experiencing from the two most important people in my life.
I spent the night at the BFs house last night, and I felt like I didn't know who he was. I still love him.... I just don't feel as close to him as I would like to. It makes me sad.
And the same goes for the bestest.
I feel like I need to get away from school and wrestling, and these new people in my life, and just reconect and recharge my batteries......
Actually, I don't know what I need.
All I know is that I hate everything right now. So I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a while
I just feel so apathetic and frsutrated with life right now.... and as is such, have no desire to go on MSN, update on here, reply to emails, or talk on the phone.... I don't really want to do anything.
Well, I wanna sit and watch TV.. and have some time to myself. That's about it.
Ever since wrestling started after Christmas, I've been feeling so blah, and its gotten worse since school has started again.
I get up at 7:00, go to school until 4:30, and then go to practice until 7:30ish, eat supper, and go to bed.
I'm not exciting, and this schedual is pissing me off.
Even more so, is the fact that I never see my bestest friend anymore.
We have to plan our get togethers like 6 weeks in advance. How pathetic is that?
And one of the sad things is that I should be missing her, but I don't. I have all these really cool new friends (who are in all of my classes (in education, we're with the same people all the time)) and they're pretty swank. And they take up most of my time (as well as the people on my wrestling team)....... I dunno.
It's just weird, I think, because I have all these new people in my life... whereas I used to only have my best friend, and my boy friend. Now I've got a billion other people.
I'm not sure where I'm going with this entry.... lol
But seriously, I think that I'm the type of person who does well with one or two good friends, and now I've got about 15 new friends, and I'm overwhelmed... and stressed.... hahaha.
But yeah, I feel like I'm not even friends with my bestest anymore.
And the same with my BF... I feel like I don't even know him anymore.... like I'm so disconnected from him. I don't like it. I don't enjoy this seperation I'm experiencing from the two most important people in my life.
I spent the night at the BFs house last night, and I felt like I didn't know who he was. I still love him.... I just don't feel as close to him as I would like to. It makes me sad.
And the same goes for the bestest.
I feel like I need to get away from school and wrestling, and these new people in my life, and just reconect and recharge my batteries......
Actually, I don't know what I need.
All I know is that I hate everything right now. So I'm sorry that I haven't updated in a while
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-hugs very very tightly
i can offer with a sentiment more than my bungling big mouth could ever hope to.
<3
i hope, and that indeed it SHALL
work out for you