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desormais

Millersville, MD

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Tuesday Jan 05, 2010

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long and whiny post ahead:

so, i'm turning 26 on the 28th of this month.

i can't believe it. i fucking hate it. but i guess it can't be worse than last year's (in which i broke up with my gf of 2 years right before), or the year before that during which said ex was in england. i got no party, barely any presents.

speaking of which, i still haven't been paid back for the presents i give others. a fucking ds last year, and an expensive ass purse this year. i was trying to be nice; the purse was a gift for a certain obvious someone, and i also bought her more shit. why? i don't know. i'm assuming she'll talk to me again when she's not in puppy love, which i understand. i usually ignore most of our banter anyway, but the few times i've found things that would generally make her crack up has just gone completely ignored.

it's a theme. so now i'm completely broke thanks to my altruism, and i want to slit my wrists. i haven't felt suicidal in so long...the withdrawal made me want to die, but made me stronger, i thought. guess not.

on the plus side, even though i have the dreaded "skinny fat," i weigh 122 lbs. it's odd. i've also drummed about that many songs in 3 days. my hands are killing me, and i still suck at it. fuck it all.
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lucine:
hang in there sweet heart. You have an amazing heart and things will work out in the end baby...remember it cant rain all the time...your so great you deserve way better then that lovesmile
Jan 5, 2010
lucine:
oh Im glad your gaining a little weight baby you need to be healthy and take care of yourself.
Jan 5, 2010

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