desormais

As of now, I have officially been clean of any substance for about a day and a half. it's the longest i've gone in almost a year, i'd bargain.

i have no idea what to feel. i'll tell you what i DO feel, however, which is shit awful, but better than i was a few days ago. now i just feel lifeless...vertigo, i'm breathless all the time, my left hand trembles for some reason, my memory still lapses. maybe i've been having that shit happen for awhile thanks to the epilepsy, but now i'm just so aware of everything it's really dominant.

nothing really important to add. i spend my days in and out of bed, trying to sleep, not able to sit or stand for hours on end.

hope your holiday is well.