desormais

so...i quite possibly have a small aneurysm. i don't remember tuesday at all. i fell out of my chair during a meeting...and don't remember it. and on top of all that, even though i have the support of my friends...well, i have mercie and evan, both of whom don't know what to do (not that i blame them), but every other acquaintance i have \think i'm just another freak or fuck up. i want to die. i want to stop crying. and not only that, but i'm broke because i've been supporting me and mercie...and i blow all the money whe erow

kill me.

edit: thanks for the well wishes. wish mercie well, too, she needs it.

i'm still not sure what those last two words i typed mean. i'm so fucked up. i don't want to die... : \