desormais

spent a fewhours at the hospital for my pleurisy today. basically i waited for 3 hours for antibiotics/lung steroids i've taken a few times before, an x-ray showing my rib was in tact and i didn't have pneumonia. i'm gonna have fun paying that shit off. my insurance is fucking terrible.

and i may or may not be leaving. depends on mercie, i guess. everytime i go into chat i cause drama. it's fucking ridiculous. just by existing it follows me. wtf. i mean, i make a non-snarky remark that gets misinterpreted (over a so-called question that wasn't a question at all) and i get blocked by one of her friends, in turn upsetting her.

jesus.

i'm just gonna keep my fucking mouth shut and play music/play the drums from now on. if i bother even coming back if all i do is piss people off *sigh*

all this all because i wanted to love and i let people manipulate my emotions too easliiy.

go me. christ i'm just a plague.

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