i have a doctor appointment tomorrow. 10:15. i'll update then. took the day off tomorrow, probably will for a few days till i recover.
surprisingly i was able to reach all the parties involved in the fucking me over in terms of my insurance.
long story: my insurance sends a letter to every single fucking doctor i see (in my case it's been a lot,...
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surprisingly i was able to reach all the parties involved in the fucking me over in terms of my insurance.
long story: my insurance sends a letter to every single fucking doctor i see (in my case it's been a lot,...
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mercie:
mhmm. exactly the shit I'm talking about. fuck.
ohvelveteen:
Ugh, I don't even open those letters anymore. I hope you experience some relief soon. <3
i sleep through my alarm and go to work late. i go to sleep an hour after coming home. i wake up at almost midnight. and now i'm again about to go to sleep.
fuck. what is wrong with me. the pain has dulled by every inch of me aches. it's painful to breathe, to walk, to eat.
and i have insurance, but i know...
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fuck. what is wrong with me. the pain has dulled by every inch of me aches. it's painful to breathe, to walk, to eat.
and i have insurance, but i know...
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caralee:
it sounds like mono. at least it's not stereo, ha ha?
vittore:
Doctor, now.
Take better care of yourself, goddamn it.
Take better care of yourself, goddamn it.
i slept for about 19 hours today. my body feels like it got hit by a truck. i might have to go to the hospital for the 3rd time in 4 months.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i'm broken physically and mentally...ugh.no wonder i'm treated like a leper by everyone.
edit: jesus, i may have lupus or something else due to my pleurisy....
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what the fuck is wrong with me?
i'm broken physically and mentally...ugh.no wonder i'm treated like a leper by everyone.
edit: jesus, i may have lupus or something else due to my pleurisy....
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gfys:
umm yeah no dieing, but lots and lots of love 
Az
Az
kelseyyboo:
haha no, its where i cropped myself taking the pic.
mirror shot!
mirror shot!
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mercie:
ps, i really like the first picture. I might edit that one anyway. keep me company today on text, I'm sure I'll be bored as fuck with this drive and wedding. blech.
gfys:
You look awesome. It's great to know I make someone smile. Did i mention you look totally hot??
check the postmarks out. it's like a shoegazey 50s girl band throw back.
their song "OX4" from their album by the numbers is particularly amazing. (and apparently it's a Ride cover. makes sense)
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caralee:
'special agent utah, i knew i could count on you'
vittore:
Based on today, actually.
True story; Had to vent some of the frustration.
True story; Had to vent some of the frustration.
love?
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mun573r:
Fuck it, im sick of disappointment.
mercie:
While we're at it then:
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return."
I hate all of them... I shall not use the <3 symbol since it apparently means nothing.
"You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love.
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?"
Have a good day, I guess.
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return."
I hate all of them... I shall not use the <3 symbol since it apparently means nothing.
"You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love.
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?"
Have a good day, I guess.
i don't know what to do anymore. what lines should i not cross when i'm not sure where they are? i keep thinking i'm doing the right thing but i never am, apparently.
fuck it all.
i'm still gaining weight.
i hate myself.
i hate my job. but at least it's been busy. here's to another shitty day.
ugh...and now i'm trying to play rock...
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fuck it all.
i'm still gaining weight.
i hate myself.
i hate my job. but at least it's been busy. here's to another shitty day.
ugh...and now i'm trying to play rock...
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gfys:
I don't have any wisdom to offer, but in my here thereness I have love to give. I think you are both pretty awesome and hope the best for you both. I wish I had more to say but currently all I can think is harriet tubman, industrial revolution, nursing cadet corps and the long line of history in the nursing field(I have an exam tomorrow) and whatever random homework thoughts seem to cloud my mind at any given moment. Always here to listen always here to try and make you smile, just always here. Madd luv <333333 Azi
everyone give mercie love. she needs it.
we're both on the verge of breakdowns. i think people understand why i'm an existentialist only when they hit bottom and see that the world really doesn't care. it's a cold, unfeeling place with fleeting moments of shared misery.
but smeh. this is life, and until we die or have the courage to meet our own end, on...
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we're both on the verge of breakdowns. i think people understand why i'm an existentialist only when they hit bottom and see that the world really doesn't care. it's a cold, unfeeling place with fleeting moments of shared misery.
but smeh. this is life, and until we die or have the courage to meet our own end, on...
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vittore:
You know I disagree, but you have to find your own beauty.
I can't force you to see happiness,
just as much as you can't convince me that the world is nothing but misery.
I wish you soup, kitten cuddles, and love.
Goodnight. ^-^
I can't force you to see happiness,
just as much as you can't convince me that the world is nothing but misery.
I wish you soup, kitten cuddles, and love.
Goodnight. ^-^
mercie:
I love your face. So hard.
fucking pleurisy. every day is misery.
so, question. where did you meet your significant other? mercie and i need help with this.
and no, don't say "you two should hook up!" because been there, done that.
sg has no available singles that are appealing to us or within driving distance. myspace and facebook these days are just spam wastelands.
my last gf i met at...
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so, question. where did you meet your significant other? mercie and i need help with this.
and no, don't say "you two should hook up!" because been there, done that.
sg has no available singles that are appealing to us or within driving distance. myspace and facebook these days are just spam wastelands.
my last gf i met at...
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zoos:
haha, sorry, i don't. most of my friends anymore are either married, on here, or just.....put it this way, I love my best friend to death, but I'd feel like shit to set anyone I cared about up with her. She is an IMPOSSIBLE person. too self absorbed and way too many petty issues... girl's got problems. I love her, but I wouldn't wish her on anyone. ahahah...
kittycontagious:
I met Jon at a game of Vampire: The Masquerade. We've been together over a year.
I'd say try going to a club or trying a new hobby.
Friends of mine met at a War Hammer workshop and have been together for almost three years.
I'd say try going to a club or trying a new hobby.
Friends of mine met at a War Hammer workshop and have been together for almost three years.
my rib isn't getting better
now i'm getting laughed at it chat (at, not with)
my drumming is terrible and no one gives a shit about it (except mercie who always loves me and sometimes mj); same with my music. sometimes people like me dj'ing, but usually i'm ignored.
i guess i should expect that, i don't expect or need to be popular. but getting...
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now i'm getting laughed at it chat (at, not with)
my drumming is terrible and no one gives a shit about it (except mercie who always loves me and sometimes mj); same with my music. sometimes people like me dj'ing, but usually i'm ignored.
i guess i should expect that, i don't expect or need to be popular. but getting...
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sjofn_:
I had way too much fun last night, ended up partying in Atlanic City till 11 this morning, won a bunch a cash as well, and had a great hotel room. now I'm laying in bed, sick as a dog pushed my body a little to hard so I know I'll be in bed for atleast two day's...lol anyway that's my problem.
I would love to peal those layer's of your brain and see what make's you so down on yourself, or see how some cocklseave saying something your music would bother you? What's this cocksleave doing with his time,?
You need to start thinking that your a beautiful person, it seems that alot of people see it... why can't you?
I would love to peal those layer's of your brain and see what make's you so down on yourself, or see how some cocklseave saying something your music would bother you? What's this cocksleave doing with his time,?
You need to start thinking that your a beautiful person, it seems that alot of people see it... why can't you?
sjofn_:
did you really just say your sorry for how you feel....? Really ? Your not a disapoinment never you can feel disapointed in sitution, but understand that and move on.... Know that sometimes you dont cause the problems in people's life.....
lol please don't ever say your sorry for how you feel, not to me or anyone
lol please don't ever say your sorry for how you feel, not to me or anyone
spent a fewhours at the hospital for my pleurisy today. basically i waited for 3 hours for antibiotics/lung steroids i've taken a few times before, an x-ray showing my rib was in tact and i didn't have pneumonia. i'm gonna have fun paying that shit off. my insurance is fucking terrible.
and i may or may not be leaving. depends on mercie, i guess. everytime...
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and i may or may not be leaving. depends on mercie, i guess. everytime...
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austere:
already got that part covered.
i say you just ignore the haters and keep on chatting.
i say you just ignore the haters and keep on chatting.
caralee:
oh everything has been and always will be forever up and down and even though we have been living this way our entire lives, it still doesn't seem to bring much security to the present situation.
in other words
'i got this'
in other words
'i got this'
thanks for the support...i thought everyone hated me
you all probably should, but i guess i can't change your minds
just listen to music with me and fade into nothing.
on top of everything, i havepleurisy AGAIN. it is the most painful thing to experience short of kidney stones. and i deserve every second of it.
here's to possibly spending my weekend in the...
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you all probably should, but i guess i can't change your minds
just listen to music with me and fade into nothing.
on top of everything, i havepleurisy AGAIN. it is the most painful thing to experience short of kidney stones. and i deserve every second of it.
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amarillo:
hun i am so sorry that you dont feel good. i would try to make it better for ya if were closer to u.... since i'm not... here's an internet hug *HHUUUUUGGGGGSSSSSSSSSS*
kelseyyboo:
i know i have that listed as a prospective name already.
im glad its not taken.
i think i might try nocturne first...
i guess i should change my name on here from kelseyyboo.
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its weird that theres no sg by name of kelsey though. i could just do my name... haha.
im glad its not taken.
i think i might try nocturne first...
i guess i should change my name on here from kelseyyboo.
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its weird that theres no sg by name of kelsey though. i could just do my name... haha.