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Questions

Have you ever stood on the other side of the moon, looking down? Have you ever crawled inside, not wondering what awaits, but you cannot help but know? Have you ever felt a pain so close it was like the knife was inside you? Have you ever felt a piece of you wither until there was nothing left but a stain, blackened and charred, lifeless and void of everything you hold dear? Have you ever felt your heart tear itself in half while you looked back at your life and wondered what should have been?
Have you ever looked into the face of fear and saw yourself there? Have you ever looked for the tormentor of your life, to find only you standing, smiling back for a job well done? Have you ever looked for a fear that wasnt there, but you still feel it all the same, the fears of fairy tales and gospels that you can shed less easily then your own blood? Have you ever reached out to others for help only to have your arm cut off at the shoulder while they tell you their problems? Have you ever wished the world would stop and see you for who you are, instead of what they want you to be? Have you ever toyed with the things they told you not to, only to find that it was a bigger lie then their own pathetic faiths?
Do people understand you; care for you; live for you; or live through you? Love only you, like a diamond flawless in their minds and hearts? Do you ever think thoughts so deep you fear you may drown? Did you ever know the answer but knew that no one would ever listen, or even care? Did you forget the question? Have you ever felt like the sad clown; crying at stardust, crying at loves lost?
Do you ever wonder why you care, or better yet, why you should? Do you ever wonder if you ever could or have? Have you ever looked at the darkness behind the lights? Did you feel the warmth and knowledge there and know that you have finally found a home? Have you ever heard the flames singing your name? Has a demon ever held your hand and laid you down to sleep, singing its arcane lullabies, and kissing your head as you drift off to sleep?
Have you ever heard the angels cry, slowly dying in their own miseries, ripping off their wings to try and stop the pain, drinking the blood of their kith and kin as they screamed to a god that didnt care then and still doesnt, save that his children have lost their appeal to him? Have you ever heard them cry forgiveness from something incapable, something even darker then my own soul?
Have you ever felt the thunder in your own essence? See the strength that you truly have, the individual fire that this world so tries to stamp away but can never truly destroy, though not from lack of trying? Have you ever felt the light in your own mind, brighter then any sun, greater then any moonshine, and more beautiful then a thousand galaxies?
Have you ever wondered why we were here, to make other peoples lives more interesting, and to make their joys at our failures more tangible? To make someone elses life richer as they slowly kill us with their needs?
Have you ever known that the gods exist, known with every sinew of your being, and curse them as they sit idle and do nothing as their children are killed for anothers belief, so righteously, so callously asking for our love as they give us nothing but pain and misery?
Have you ever looked at this world and knew that you would never truly leave it? That you are connected to it by a pact of love that extends a thousand lifetimes? Has the thought alone ever made you cry a malady of melodies? Have you ever longed for the bittersweet life of poets, only to see that their lives are not in their words, but your very own?
Dare I lament?

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