desmodius

it's new years eve day.... woo hoo!!!! and thanks to mother natures shitty timing. i've got no going out money.... i'm still going to go out of course. i just really don't know where. maybe to a place in town called the hot spot. i don't know.... tell the truth i'd like to just have some friends over here and drink and watch psycho beach party or something and just have fun instead of spending an exhorbinant amount of their cash flow... (not mine... remember... broke...) on shit i already have at my place.
got a partially drank 750 ml of yager, bud light and mich ultra sitting in my fridge looking all so pretty and edible... come... drink me... we are yummy....
anyway. i have to work at the pizza place till 9 tonight, that is of course unless i get fired for something that i had done yesterday.
i sent mel (A women that works at the pizza place with me. i.e. why i may get fired if she is vendictive.) an email yesterday and told her that if she only wanted to be friends with me... then i saw no point in even being that... i have friends that are women... don't get me wrong... but i am not a coddle post and i am not her gay friend... i'm not gay.... and if i was, i wouldn't have time for her anyway. i'd be done at the club trying to pick up gay guys....lol... i don't know how to explain this without coming off like a supreme asshole... which i'm not. though i am the founder of the black hearts...
i am just not going to be the friend of a woman who thinks that i am too far beneath her to date. which is what friends means in truth... that's what i've seen from it anyway. a freindship has to be a mutual thing or it just ain't gonna happen.
i have seen a lot of guys get destroyed because they were the friends of a woman that they actually were in love with....and the sad part is that the women knew it and kept the guy around in some kind of sadistic thing that he never did anything to deserve... and i ain't gonna let that happen to me...not that i'm in love with her... but anyway....if there's no chance... why waste my time... right?
i am hoping that i can get my freinds to come over here and drink and make with the merry. if not then i don't really have a secondary plan besides coming home after work and drinking and hanging on yahoo talking to others with nothing to do....i.e. the loser sect....lol
i need drink and song.
later
freinds=we will never really mean anything to each other. you will watch me date, fuck and fall in love with a whole manner of guys that will never be you, and one day i will dissappear and you will never see me again because in truth. you meant nothing to me to begin with. you are beneath me and not good enough for me, or to have me...
am i wrong? let me know...


update: it's 10 o'clock. well almost. I have a party to go too... woo hoo. bringing my jager... it's at anna's. yay!!!!
rented res 2 on my way into work. hope all of you gyet as bombed as i will be in about three hours....
laters...