desmodius

tomorrow is vivid's birthday, so anyone who reads this needs to go wish her an awsome one. and buy her a ferris wheel if you got the cash... just for the hell of it. hopefully my tired as holy hell ass will be able to get out of bed early enough to fight with my dial up connection so i can wish her a happy b-day... her birthdays as well as everyones for that matter, should be happy ones... 1. it's the day you were born, and should be the most important day o' the year, if to no one else but you. 2. it's another year we can tell the after life to piss off. ninghizidas claws ain't got me yet... yay!!! that kind a thang... i thank you for compliance... for non compliance you get... grrr... lol
it seems the uber intellectual flux has an uber sexy set new and out and about... okay, so i'm a day late on this one... oops... i was barely online yesterday and had not the time to meander much...
i raise my goblet of annu to you lass. may the stairs of light shine for your souls most desired expectations/and or atrocities...lol
okay. i am a tired chumpy so the rest of this will be brief...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......... huh... oh... sorry about that... anyway....
i was lying in bed at almost 2 am today wishing i had meds to make me fall asleep. it seems i am falling asleep later and later everyday... i am so freaking tired right now, but i cannot seem to make myself lie down, or close my eyes and there has never been any way i could force myself to fall asleep, i've heard of people doing this, but i can't...
i get on average anymore between 3 and four hours of sleep. i'm so tired i can barely think straight, but my mind will not slow down... i hope that this is just a phase... if not, i need to convince a freind to come over and clunk me with a lamp and knock my ass out at night so i can get some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz's's's's's's...'s lol
i have no way of relaying how much sleep deprevation sucks... if you haven't had it. you just wouldn't know... i fear that i am slowly slipping into insomnia... that would really suck...
guess that wasn't so breif...
discordant thoughts, random patterns in the nothingness to give it shape, to make it breath.
to take this lifes blood that i oh so need, and replenish,
resplendent, the davendish and the joesephines. to make them real yet still unseen.
for life's obsidian obsenities draw me quick,
like a masochists ecstacy, and the knives wet slick.

night all, tossing and turning due to commence, either that or i'll just eat some chicken chunks and watch saw. haven't decided...
g'night all.