desmodius

i found out tonight that a girl that i worked with quite a bit at the second job is in jail on a accessory to homicide charge. i do not know the whole details about it. but it seems her boyfreind gunned down a seventeen year old kid, and she was there. everyone i talked to said she was going up for a while.
i'll never get that shit about humanity. why we seem to need to kill each other. it seems like your only living if you take life. it's tragic. reminds me of a neighbor i had when i lived back in philly. my upstairsd neighbor was under investigation in texas on a double axe murder... that's right... double axe murder.
now don't get me wrong. i like horror, violent movies and video games. they are extremely fun to me. toxie rules. why are they fun. because they aren't real. fictional death no one gets hurts. when a life is taken from this world. it dies a little with it. there is a hole in the world. in the people who cared about those people.
fucking just sad.
wars, murder. it's so fucking futile. infantile.
fuck it.
this coming from a man who is creating a violent role playing game called serial killa'. lol.