desirey

People always leave...
So my mom and my sister came back home today and I had a huge fight with my sister and we normally do fight its what sisters do but it really got me mad how my mom always creeps into our arguments and always judges me and describes me and basically puts me down a lot cuz you know shes always been more proud of my sister and this is always bothered me but I try to hold it back and not show her how bad she makes me feel I just dont want her to know it cuz I do love her she is amazing and she has educated me very well and I owe her a lot but I really dont like her attitude towards me and my sister sometimes, she just puts me down way to much. And the fight with my sister really got to me because today we were supposed to do something that we have always done together and now when she is going away and leaving me I really wanted to do this with her for the last time but she had planes with a friend of hers that is moving away as well and she just went and broke her promise and this is something that really gets to me like brakes me down in a million pieces and every time she does something like that I take it in so bad just because I think I love her more then she loves me.. She is my best friend but we almost never do stuff together anymore and we dont talk and now when she is going away I am just sad all the time. My boyfriend studies in another country and now she is leaving me and I do have friends but the people I love the most are not with me and I dont know what to do now I am not happy at all and my mom apparently doesnt get it cuz she says she doesnt know me anymore, well how will she when I am not her happy kid anymore, I am this sad, lonely girl with a broken heart and she doesnt even want to see it And now when my sister leaves I am going to be left alone with her and I dont know how Im gonna stand it.. I love my parents but they show no interest in my pain so I dont want to share it with them anymore! Like Peyton used to say People always leave ;(