desidia

I think I regret some of the things I said tonight. Nothing I can't live with but still.

However I don't regret saying this: I herby, solemnly vow to oneday have a consistent, late night party house, where every night, whenever your party sucks or the bars close a little too soon for you, I'll be there.

Hell, I pretty much have that covered already,...
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Goddamn I love The Smiths.

Mousetrap went off while I was asleep this morning. It registered in my dream. Later, in the afternoon while I'm still sleeping, a ferret gets into my room and in my sleep I'm dream-thinking the mouse got caught but lived and is running around with the trap on it.

As it turns out, the trap was empty... it went off......
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I believe I've exhausted my near limitless supply of misanthropy but perhaps my lack of energy is due to my new diet: 2 meals every 48 hours, cigarettes and diet coke anytime inbetween. The fun part about anorexia is not having to go to the bathroom like ever. Not that its really anorexia, which is a disorder, this is more of a body modification.

regardless,...
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I've decided I no longer have to convey my thoughts in order to be cool.

So yeah, it was nice talking to you.

the full moon makes me very happy but I still don't want to see or talk to people which I did a pretty good job of this weekend. and i'm tired of killing mice. i think i'm going to fantasize about reading my copy of lullaby fantasizing about having that lullaby. next paycheck I'll have to get another one.

you have no idea how bad...
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Its come to my attention that I hate everyone.

I should call my father but that'd still be human contact

Its been a weird fucking day.

Where to even start? I went to work like always, contemplating my dissapointment in life, loitering in my melancholy. A cute girl comes in and I almost start drooling. But she's a hippie! WEIRD. She used to come into work with her hair to her waist in some tan or earth coloured dress and hemp sandals and god-knows-what...
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woo! I just put my first person on the ignore list! I feel like celebrating!

I've been working morning shifts all week (6:30am - 12:30pm). Since I'm basically incapable of sleeping at night this generally means one of two things, a) try to sleep at 2:00am and actually fall asleep at 4:00am. or b) just stay up. Regardless, when I get off work its time to go to bed. Except this is when I run errands.

The moral of the...
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Thought of the day: I think homosexual goths should carry the rainbow flag in grayscale.

I spent the last five days stagnating in my room. Wore the same hoody and cargo pants, didn't shave, forgot to do laundry. Only left the house twice for 10 minutes to get junk food. Did absoultely, positively nothing. I think it was my mourning period.

Because this morning I...
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