desidia

There never was any light at the end of the tunnel.
Unemployment benefits denied.

I'm never getting out of here alive.

I can't even leech of the state like every other bad-toothed bumpkin in a baseball cap out here. Its been six months and I've had one job interview. I can't even get a fast food job.

I keep saying its just a bad patch, bad luck it happens and I'll get through it. But my life has been shit since July and every month much to my surprise, always finds a way to end up worse than the one before.

Its been blow after blow after blow after blow after blow.

There has to be a limit to how big of a shit God can take on my life but theres also a limit to how much I can tolerate. Before I just have to accept there are no other choices left except to take my own life just in case there was still some dignity I had forgotten about.

Shit. fuck.