desidia

hmm... what to update... oh! I got it:

This may make me a freak, but I'm pretty sure I hate bubble tea... except for the cup which is awesome and I saved because it has a lobster and a super baby.

oh look. my dating profile came back. fancy that.

for some reason the romance and booty went away, probably because I HATE THEM

Drama is a horrible monster that lives under my bed. Usually I stay at home, playing video games or sleeping and when he pokes his head out I beat him with a lead pipe or stab him with my knife.

When I leave the house he comes out and plays and every time I come back home he has grown a little bit bigger. Eventually...
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In the forest, is a monster
It has done terrible things
So in the wood, it's hiding
And this is the song it sings

Who will love me now?
Who will ever love me?
Who will say to me
"You are my desire, I set you free?"

(Who will love me now?)

Who will forgive and make me live again?
Who will bring me back...
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I bought a friend a really late christmas present today, over two months late. Then I decided to keep it for myself.

I think this is why I don't have many/any close friends...


you can't blame me though, it was Napoleon Dynamite.

I am drunk and want to stay up be drunk.

However, I also want to go to work tomorrow then go out get drunk and stay up again.

Desire #1 requires sleep
Desire #2 requires not sleeping

no wait. strike that. reverse it.

anyway, this is my problem

:passes out:

I started to write an entry about how I wanted to grow wings in high school and how that fantasy has evolved/dissolved over the years but then I got depressed/emo and erased it about halfway through.

I really want to paint, but as always, I don't know what so I guess I'll play video games instead. and smoke myself senceless. maybe take a shot of...
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"Love is just an abstract concept, it can't knock down stuff."

So today at work I completed reading No Exit, mainly on account on work not being terribly taxing and it being a pretty damn short play. Actually I was dissapointed. I had only seen it performed once during my freshman year of hi-school and prior to that I had no experience in the more pessimistic aspects of philosophy. Actually fuck this literary fumbling about,...
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True apathy is rare and difficult to describe.
For most of yesterday I felt nothing. In most cases of apathy, and I believe I'm speaking in general here, its in regards to others but I felt nothing nothing.

Nothing positive, negative or even neutral.
Wasn't hungry, uncomfortable, bored. Customers would ask how I felt and I couldn't even answer, I was just an extension of...
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CLOVE SMOKERS UNITE!!

We must cast off the oppression of the average smokers. Together we must stand against those would deny us our nicotine simply because ours smell... like incense I guess, and theirs smell... umm... worse. No longer will we tolerate waiting to go outside or hiding in the bathrooms like hi-schoolers.

We will fight them at Dragonfish! We will fight them at Dots!...
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I went to my first flea market today. it was rather entertaining, $27 katanas and such, movies you've never heard of.

I bought a goth little butterfly knife for $10.
black blade, curved the wrong way (for aesthetics rather than cutting) spider and web on the hilt.

I'm in love with it

expect shitty webcam pictures.
oh yeah, had sex in a geo metro. that...
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