Dissatisfied. The need to escape continued involvement with his present circumstances makes it imperative for him to find some solution.
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads him to...
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Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads him to...
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nixon:
Thank heavens for that sexual activity part.Its the only bright spot in the damn quiz. Also,all the colors were ugly but black. Even the grey was crap.
Seeks a close and understanding bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy, as a protection against anxiety and conflict.
Feels lonely and uncertain as he has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the...
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Feels lonely and uncertain as he has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file. This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the...
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nixon:
Alsoit's a good thing it wasn't really an eyeball. Seeing as how you bit it and all.
nixon:
Hmmm...I tookit twice, and it seemed bitter about something. It hates my colors.
PS-
back atcha.
[Edited on Nov 01, 2005 12:42PM]
PS-
back atcha.
[Edited on Nov 01, 2005 12:42PM]
I think I finally went crazy. I felt the anxiety even before I woke up. Really bad. Everything feels wrong. I can't function. Can't focus enough to even make breakfast let alone get anything done. Maybe I should get myself committed.
I'm losing my sence of "do's" and "don'ts". I don't like the things that are coming out of my mouth and I'm already regretting...
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I'm losing my sence of "do's" and "don'ts". I don't like the things that are coming out of my mouth and I'm already regretting...
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yumchen:
I lived out there for 2 years and was able to slowly migrate back to eugene. Eugene isn't big except when compared to Cheshire (I lived in Burp Hollow to be exact). Now I am in Klamath Falls 
I've started sneaking kaluha in my chai tea so I can start drinking at breakfast.
I'd rather be in the boondocks than in the woods. After two weeks I finally saw the stars out here. A clear night comes once a blue moon, but naturally not on the actual night of a blue moon. Beautiful, but hardly worth the price. Blue Jays are assholes. I...
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I'd rather be in the boondocks than in the woods. After two weeks I finally saw the stars out here. A clear night comes once a blue moon, but naturally not on the actual night of a blue moon. Beautiful, but hardly worth the price. Blue Jays are assholes. I...
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tish:
It's true. It was pretty much exactly that.
What I really wanted to do was something in an abandoned building, but it could not be successfully arranged. :[
What I really wanted to do was something in an abandoned building, but it could not be successfully arranged. :[
chloe:
Well..... ahem. Glad I have permission, but you should have granted it to me a couple weeks ago.
Spent a good hour and a half on my eyebrows.
So much for fitting in with the locals.
Still no idea what I'm doing or what I should be doing. Just pacing and being angry, emo or bored. OMG with the crazyangry. WTF?!?11! Why am I in the woods and why can't I get out?
Just thinking about other people out living their lives makes...
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So much for fitting in with the locals.
Still no idea what I'm doing or what I should be doing. Just pacing and being angry, emo or bored. OMG with the crazyangry. WTF?!?11! Why am I in the woods and why can't I get out?
Just thinking about other people out living their lives makes...
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ryan:
anger is such a terribly exhausting emotion. i really don't care for it much. however, it seems to rule my life.
midnight. bossanova. the werewolf will appear.
midnight. bossanova. the werewolf will appear.
ryan:
that is... saturday anyways.
I was having issues opening a pistachio nut while a body building commercial was on 
Since its friday that will probably be the highlight of my day. Friday is the worst day for television and when you're a 20 minute drive from even the most rudimentary bar without a car, television is your main source of entertainment.
Got a bus ticket to portland for the...
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Since its friday that will probably be the highlight of my day. Friday is the worst day for television and when you're a 20 minute drive from even the most rudimentary bar without a car, television is your main source of entertainment.
Got a bus ticket to portland for the...
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nixon:
Ah, but there WILL be fun, sex, and sushi.
Goddammit. MisterSatan can go to Hell.
In other news, I seem to be drinking a lot. Never enough to get plastered, just a steady intoxication from 8pm to 2am every day and its kinda adding up. I wish the liquor store was closer. Or that there was something else to do. I think I'm starting to feel the cabin fever.
Barely smoking though. As it...
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In other news, I seem to be drinking a lot. Never enough to get plastered, just a steady intoxication from 8pm to 2am every day and its kinda adding up. I wish the liquor store was closer. Or that there was something else to do. I think I'm starting to feel the cabin fever.
Barely smoking though. As it...
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posh:
nerubians would be awesome ...
Ah Morrissey, you have a song for all 101 flavours of teenage angst <3
What she said :
"How come someone hasn't noticed
That I'm dead
And decided to bury me?
God knows, I'm ready!"
La-la-la ...
What she said was sad
But then, all the rejection she's had
To pretend to be happy
Could only be idiocy
La-la-la ...
What she said was not...
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What she said :
"How come someone hasn't noticed
That I'm dead
And decided to bury me?
God knows, I'm ready!"
La-la-la ...
What she said was sad
But then, all the rejection she's had
To pretend to be happy
Could only be idiocy
La-la-la ...
What she said was not...
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nixon:
That took a study? Some one paid for that study?
You're cute when you're emo.
You're cute when you're emo.
nixon:
I'm not making light of it, I know it sucks.
Damn EMO virus. Alchohol weakens your immune system to it. Now I have to stay offline and away from phones until the feeling that I'm a complete failure and will continue to stay one passes again.
Although a pretty big failure in life at this point all my role models and peers are 4-8 years older than me. I keep saying I have 4-8 years...
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Although a pretty big failure in life at this point all my role models and peers are 4-8 years older than me. I keep saying I have 4-8 years...
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nixon:
Secure home. What a bizarre concept to me.
I think your crush rules are correct. Don't consider yourself replaced, however, just moved to a more secure spot on my list. I think your trial period is over. Now I'll let you stick around as long as you want.
I think your crush rules are correct. Don't consider yourself replaced, however, just moved to a more secure spot on my list. I think your trial period is over. Now I'll let you stick around as long as you want.
I found cigarettes. Yesterday. Not just any cigarettes of course. My Djarum Specials. But I haven't had one yet. Because I'm a masochist.
I've been dangling them in front of me to the point of salavation. Soon it will be time for salvation. If not tonight, tomorrow.
I've been thinking of changing my last name to Carabas. Remind me to lecture you on why someday....
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I've been dangling them in front of me to the point of salavation. Soon it will be time for salvation. If not tonight, tomorrow.
I've been thinking of changing my last name to Carabas. Remind me to lecture you on why someday....
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nixon:
Right. Goggles. It's very Joel-Peter Witkin in my head. Who also seems fascinated by corgis. Which is odd.
nixon:
And as for my crush field, I'm going to have to find SOME way to entertain myself once I'm back in SF. I've been doing some research.
I'm going to be a gothic Howard Hughes when I grow up.
I'm already neurotic and date girls made from awesome, I'm just fucking penniless...
For instance my new house has three bathrooms, only one of these bathrooms has a fully functioning door. One will lock you inside if you ever close the door and the other has no door whatsoever. I couldn't rinse my...
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I'm already neurotic and date girls made from awesome, I'm just fucking penniless...
For instance my new house has three bathrooms, only one of these bathrooms has a fully functioning door. One will lock you inside if you ever close the door and the other has no door whatsoever. I couldn't rinse my...
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missshell:
nothing to do with anything..but i think your artwork is beautiful
missshell:
so the government is fucked...
but the boys and the accents are dreamy
american accent=wetness.
but the boys and the accents are dreamy
american accent=wetness.
So where to begin? This new city I call home: Cheshire, Oregon...
Good news! They paved the road all the way up to the driveway! For joy! Our house... has three bathrooms. Only one of these bathrooms has a fully functioning door. One will lock you inside if you ever close the door and the other has no door whatsoever. I couldn't rinse my toothbrush...
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Good news! They paved the road all the way up to the driveway! For joy! Our house... has three bathrooms. Only one of these bathrooms has a fully functioning door. One will lock you inside if you ever close the door and the other has no door whatsoever. I couldn't rinse my toothbrush...
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