derelict

my horoscopes today rad misfortune to this wandering soul....... they read.
derelictess's Daily Aquarius Forecast

Quickie: You will have to put your priorities in the right order now. Put yourself second.
Overview: Direct your lusty energies toward serving others. Someone whose spirits are down in the dumps could use a shot of your robust personality and cheerful outlook on life. Good deeds come easily to you now.
Aquarius

and when is this not me?
or where do I ever as a more passive aqua girl denie these facts ...ignore my realiticity???


point being.......
I do give my all to my children(ages 6 and 4 boys for you that don't know) and then I will always come second.

I'm 24. I'm a wiodow. I'm dis abled and don't claim it. I haven't even been to a doctor in 3 yrs.
I suffer from deptression, cuctulitory issues, and mind defete in my eyes including self hate, lack of control, lack of self worth, deaming understanding of those who follow me, nursing as a goal, and defeat as an objective........
there are too many people in this area willing to give up.........
I'm not willing!