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GOT SOME THINGS MOVED AROUND IN THE HOUSE...LOOKS BETTER AND GETTING READY STUFF FOR THE BABY..WATCHING A GLEE MARATHON.

I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY...AT LEAST MORE THEN HE WAS IN THE PAST!! I TRY SO HARD TO FIND A GOOD BALANCE FOR HIM THAT I JUST END UP MAKING HIM MAD EVENTUALLY...I LOVE HIM MORE THEN HE WILL EVER KNOW...I KNOW HE WANTS TO CUT AND I THINK IT WILL DO HIM GOOD..IF IT's NOT TO DEEP!!! IT' S TIME TO GET THE...
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I miss the fun and aggressive sex....the one big down fall of being 28 weeks pregnant!! I hate feeling like a huge hippo..not that I'm super big but my stomach is...its almost february and I have the winter blahs and being pg I feel less attractive the bigger I get.

saw the baby again yesterday..she gets bigger with every ultrasound!!! she was throwing up a peace sign, which just cracked me up...and had a great reaction from her dad...lol....i cant wait till she is here...and when she gets here the snow should be gone...woohoo... two great things at one time!!!

joshua did an awesome job on the baby shower announcement.....they are one of a kind that for sure...i cant wait to see the birth announcements!!!

cant wait its almost HALLOWEEN WEEKEND!!! best time of the year!!!

i had so much fun last night just rubbing my fingers across joshuas body....i love the way it makes him feel!!

i feel so pushed away..i know he is angry but i am not quite getting who pissed him off...i know for sure im not mad..AT ALL...just confused..i get the same way towards him and say mean things when im not even pissed at him...so i get it so hopefully he will feel better and not hate the fucking world (as much)..... I LOVE HIM!!

i love him so much he is my world....he makes my heart pound!!

ive been so sick..stupid allergies...joshua has been so nice to me during it....im having a great day today...im feeling better...hope i stay that way...i love joshua...i cant wait to spend time with him again!!!