denio

Rainy rain, and the day off. Lots of coffee and good music. Of course I should be upright and productive, but the election has done something weird to me... something I have to call good?. I've spent the past years working my ass off, keeping the bacon in the larder and in recent years being able to buy records. Upright and hardworking. Somehow Bush's reelection makes me care less for these persuits. Well, not the record-buying, I'll probably get out and do some of that later today in fact... but the hard-work move-forward ethic just seems so futile. Arafat's dead, the Middle East could become the new Hiroshima without him, let alone what the US is doing to it. The future's uncertain and the end is always near...
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No Child Left Behind is a joke of a program and is bringing school districts to their knees with its endless requirements, lack of funding, and punitive judgements. No Child Left Untested, we call it. I know teachers with years of experience who are losing their jobs because they don't have a college major in their subject area... a friend was an English major, she' taught English-History classes for the past 15 years, very standard for a middle school. She has to get her History major, or pass a licensing test to continue teaching what her kids have consitently scored in the 98th percintile at on their friggin tests. But no. She is not Highly Qualified. How may people do you know with a double major in English and History? A few eh? Now how many of them are willing to teach in Middle School and have a credential? I thought not. I myself am not Highly Qualified, but I'm the only person in my district who has any clue what to do in a computer lab with kids.
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Which brings me back to what I was saying about my mood... I've been working more on art and writing, spinning records and fucking shit up with electronic gear. I wanna play more parties, glue more collages, spend time volunteering at the BMorg office, dig more rocks, set more things on fire and read more books. I don't know when exactly I grew so far up into this person who worked so friggin hard for the past 10 years... but I'm ready for some downtime, downtempo, down the road. Actually it's all good, this ennui and lack of respect for the structure that's taken over my country. It motivates me, too, to be more active politically and it melts away a lot of my fear around speaking out and risking my job. It's all part of one black whole (hole?) which I need to step out of.
So, be looking for a more productive, literate, noizy Denio. Got a DAT deck on loan, got a huge new bound book of lined paper... and though I'm still going to work, it's not gonna last forever anymore. Too much has changed.