deni

Haven't been able to get the time to do the new shoot. I guess I have to put together some of the test shoots with wardrobes for the new shoot that never happened. The photographer had some other business to deal with and I've had many financial woes that I still haven't figured out how to get out of it, and a missing boyfriend/fiance who's been missing for 3 days now where no one has heard anything from him since friday. He texted me saturday at noon saying he'd be home shortly but never showed. I'm not really sure if he's in trouble or if he'd gone ahead to that audition in Gainesville without me. I have to leave and go for training at my new 2nd job now and hope that the paycheck at least buys me some chow to last me until we find him. I or his mom doesn't believe that he would go back to his ex girlfriend and it's the last thought in my head. He'd been working steadily and was very proud that he was, we didn't fight at all and we were very happy before he just never showed up again. The last thing we'd talked about was going to Gainesville, whether or not I was pregnant(I'm not), and that he wanted to take me on a date(which I thought was cute and romantic). I'm almost at the point where I'm going to let his mom go ahead and call the fuzz and file a missing persons report. I didn't want her to because he might get arrested for some old charges that I think are still active. And I don't want him to be away from me for 3 months or more which is probably what he'll get. We were doing so well and then in an instant, everything went to shit. I really don't know what else to do and that's my last resort but I don't want him to get into trouble. I've got a few minutes left to gather my thoughts and try to force my way through another day which I haven't been sleeping much since I keep having nightmares about what might have happened to him. I'm gonna go now, I'm getting depressed.