today is the best day of the week for me. a lot has happen that opened my eyes and made me see who it is that I came to be. I lost myself down the road, forget what I stood for and what I believed in. blaming a lot of people for my problems and now im facing them head on. this is who im not and I want to improve myself for others. I can see in their eyes that I am not only hurting myself but im walking down a lonely road. I want to thank all that gave the time to have a conversation, even if it was short. im still looking for people I can talk to, its a surprise when I mention im a member on SuicideGirls I get no replies back. that's not my fault. I am a male and I don't blame you if I come off as a creek. I hope down the road my days would stay like that and not just always in the dark thinking what I did wrong. again I want to thank all that gave me a little peace of their time 