There is no way to explain how today was. It's my second day off out of four days and i have nothing to do. Didn't get any sleep last night cause had a lot on my mind. Pretty much lounged around all morning and afternoon. With no ride it's hard to go places and living in a small town there isn't much to do. Smoked whatever weed I had left, had some BerryWhite 
was sooo good I felt better afterwards.
I feel that I am ready to crack from everything going on. Making new friends is harder than ever, when your relationships ends cause there wasn't that much talking that when is over they want to talk now. Living with family members is stressful enough, me and my father don't get along but in our minds everything is ok. Winter is coming up and it gets cold, for the pass 5 years...well more like 4 it use to be warm and comfy. Now it's empty, cold, and hard to sleep on. Work is another story, for me it makes it hard that my mother is the assistant manager. Now don't think that cause she is my mother I still have a job. There were times that I messed up and I some how put her job in jeperody. I don't come or go to her for anything unless she is the only manager on site. They don't look at what I can do and the idea or suggestion that I come up with. Till something happens then my suggestion a week ago comes in play, at someone else idea. But I need the money so I'll lice with that till I don't have to.
Watching movies is awesome. I haven't seen any really good movies expect The Watch. If you want comedy you have to rent or buy that movie, I bought it. Watching movies sometimes make you wish you had someone to watch it with. Me I have no one.
A friend of mind use to text or call me and ask if I had a movie that she had. Or vis versa. That don't happen any more cause her taste in men is...well I don't approve but it's not my decision to make. I told her my feelings one night and after that haven't really heard from her. Her new boyfriend, get this, is getting out of prison. I don't see how that is good for her daughter. I guess you can say were no longer close friends. Sometimes I wish I didn't tell her how I felt.
I'm gonna end it now, I had a lot more written. A lot more but my iPad dreaded it all. I was talking football, my nephews, music, books. And it all just erased
I see my day has not ended yet.
Well see how the night goes
was sooo good I felt better afterwards.
I feel that I am ready to crack from everything going on. Making new friends is harder than ever, when your relationships ends cause there wasn't that much talking that when is over they want to talk now. Living with family members is stressful enough, me and my father don't get along but in our minds everything is ok. Winter is coming up and it gets cold, for the pass 5 years...well more like 4 it use to be warm and comfy. Now it's empty, cold, and hard to sleep on. Work is another story, for me it makes it hard that my mother is the assistant manager. Now don't think that cause she is my mother I still have a job. There were times that I messed up and I some how put her job in jeperody. I don't come or go to her for anything unless she is the only manager on site. They don't look at what I can do and the idea or suggestion that I come up with. Till something happens then my suggestion a week ago comes in play, at someone else idea. But I need the money so I'll lice with that till I don't have to.
Watching movies is awesome. I haven't seen any really good movies expect The Watch. If you want comedy you have to rent or buy that movie, I bought it. Watching movies sometimes make you wish you had someone to watch it with. Me I have no one.
A friend of mind use to text or call me and ask if I had a movie that she had. Or vis versa. That don't happen any more cause her taste in men is...well I don't approve but it's not my decision to make. I told her my feelings one night and after that haven't really heard from her. Her new boyfriend, get this, is getting out of prison. I don't see how that is good for her daughter. I guess you can say were no longer close friends. Sometimes I wish I didn't tell her how I felt.
I'm gonna end it now, I had a lot more written. A lot more but my iPad dreaded it all. I was talking football, my nephews, music, books. And it all just erased
I see my day has not ended yet.
Well see how the night goes
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demonic420:
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jackrabbit_:
OH sweetheart...I know things are rough right now, but I assure you they will get better. Patience is a hard thing to have, but I promise you that you are far from alone. *hugs galore*