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demonesskage

Sacramento

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Tuesday Oct 31, 2006

Oct 31, 2006
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Look at us through the lens of a camera
Does it remove all of your pain
If we run, they'll look in the back room
Where we hide all of our feelings

The Editors - Camera


I'm feeling a million different things, and couple of those things is restless, helpless, and trapped. No one jump to any conclusions- those feelings have nothing to do with him. In reality, I know I am none of those things, least of all helpless. I am only helpless if I give up.

There is a strange divide in my life- I no longer have any family to speak of. I have very few people I can depend on- I can count that number on one hand. Most of those people I have met only in the last year. I often fear that I depend on other people far too much, and not enough on myself. I wonder sometimes if this because I don't beleive that I am dependable. Continuing the description of the divide- I am emotionaly more content that I had ever even hoped was possible. Financially, let's face it- my head's not even above water anymore. And while I could blame this on my parents, and to an extent some of my current helpless situation is their fault. If I look deeper though, there's no one at fault besides myself. But as hopeless as I often feel, as often as I sometimes just want to give up, I wouldn't trade what I have right now for anything in the world. Giving up would involve causing him pain and. I can not do that.

This message brought to you by Sudaphed, Claritin, Widmer Brewing Company, headcolds, and long lonely days off. You may now return to your regularly scheduled program.
VIEW 19 of 19 COMMENTS
omeganightmare:
LOL...very true

Yah know I was just thinking of something... think i need to edit my post lol
Nov 3, 2006
marcybeth:
just looked at your rejected set in your pics section - i loved it. i loved the dark feel and the whole mystery to it. it's a shame it wasn't accepted. just wanted you to know. <3
Nov 3, 2006

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