He's gone for three days, to Fresno. The bed is huge and empty and makes me cry. I've pilfered one of his dirty shirts because is smells like him, like Prada. I'm going to run around in it like a second skin. You're going to get some rediculous, depressingly wretched posts out of me over the next couple days.
I think I'm going to sleep on the couch. If I get back into our bed, I'm just going to start sobbing into his pillow again. He's going to Dallas weekend after this one, so it'll be this all over again and probably worse because he'll be away longer. I was absolutely useless and desolate while he was in France and we weren't even together yet. It took me a whole other month to pull my head out of my ass. I should have known, though, since all I did while he was away was lay on the couch in the dark and cry and drink obscene amouts of alcohol. If I hadn't had a friend over when he got back from France I would have jumped him and started bawling.
I think I'm going to sleep on the couch. If I get back into our bed, I'm just going to start sobbing into his pillow again. He's going to Dallas weekend after this one, so it'll be this all over again and probably worse because he'll be away longer. I was absolutely useless and desolate while he was in France and we weren't even together yet. It took me a whole other month to pull my head out of my ass. I should have known, though, since all I did while he was away was lay on the couch in the dark and cry and drink obscene amouts of alcohol. If I hadn't had a friend over when he got back from France I would have jumped him and started bawling.
Moirae=ZombieMoirae.
Ressurection Friday, about 8:00PM.
Depending on traffic.
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Everything must pass at some point, including his leaving. He'll be back before you know it, and you'll be smiling again. I, too, knew what it was like to miss your love that badly when my wife deployed. But when she finally came home, it was like she never left. Chin up, and remember he's missing you, too.