demonaxe

It's been 3 days since I have seen my son. It weird, ya know you want to just come home to a nice quiet place after work just once. Then when you get your quietness you've dreamed about. All you can think about was I wonder what kind of noise my son is making right now. I've never been away from my son this long since the day he was born. The more I sit here and think about it the more it dawns on me how much I miss him and how much I love him. All is not lost I'll have him all weekend, everyweekend just him and me most of the time. It's just going to be different than what I'm used to. It's sad that me and his mother had to end up the way we did, but I know after trying to make it work for 6 years that it couldn't be and we are both moving on. We are still friends though. We talk, we hang out and play with Nicholas together. That's it, it's rather nice just being friends with her.

This woman I met a while back on the other hand drives me crazy in everyway. Just her mere smile or laugh sends a shiver down my spine. I look upon her and I would swear my heart skips a beat. Other than my son, it's been a very long time since anyone has made me feel this way. So happy after so many years of bitterness in my life. I'm starting to find an innerpeace within myself. Where I just sit back and smile and loose myself in my thoughts. I love being happy almost all the time. I love the feeling that she gives me. I love her smile. I love her eyes. I love her lips. I really love her voice. I love it all.