i had a dream last night that i met death. he said it was time for me to go... i didnt fight this time. i have made so many mistakes in my life. i've missed opprotunites and disreguarded people that were only trying to look out for my nest intrests. i let certain people in that were only interested in the life style that i once lived. I still hold out hope for certain things in my life but i think that i should just put the past to bed and leave things and people alone until i know for certain that i am ready for something else, i still cant get the dream out of my head. i wasnt scared i was actually releaved in a way, "you mean i can stop trying and just drift"? i'm done trying, i'm done hurting, i'm dont making mistakes and holding onto the past that obviously i pissed away with the decisions i made that got here me today. i'm just done... maybe it is time to go....
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hellkitten:
Everybody's messed up. I have, over and over again. The good thing about life, though, is that it's never too late to reinvent yourself and make a new start.
mirima:
I agree with hellkitten....I continue to reinvent myself, and rediscover myself. I will never be perfect, but its a long hard road to finding myself, and being the person I truly want to be. Life is a struggle...but I don't think its worth giving up on yourself. Just think about all the things you'd be missing...all the wonderful things you have not yet discovered? Life is a ride...you mind as well enjoy it while you can.