deminishlucidity

dwindling down to everythiing..
liar.
Im a liar.
your a fucking liar.
this is a lie.. isn't it...
said you'd love me forever.
because you knew it would come to this.
you knew.. and I did.
But we fucking lied to eachother.
Said I was beautiful with your head on my chest.
leopard pajamas on.. couch against the kitchen wall.

NOTHING MORE NEEDED.

Love me while your gone..
never here... never hear.. never heard.
Beside myself.
Besides myself.

NOTHING MORE NEEDED.

stay inside.


VISIONS SICKENED.
TOO CLOSE ENOUGH TO TOUCH.
VAGUE DISTORT.
SICKENED VISIONS.
CANT GET PASSED UGLY.

balancing my chakras with a butcher knife..
twist inside..
turn them right side up.

*sighs*

Its too late..
TOO CLOSE ENOUGH TO TOUCH

murdered any hope.. for you and I.. didnt I..
Am I fucking lying to myself..
to you..

I dont know..
VAGUE DISTORT

What will come of us..
did I plot this all subconsciously..

Because of bitches like sg girls.
dont give a fuck..
murder me.
twist my heart out..

'COME AWAY
THERE IS A DISTANT PLACE
RIGHT HERE
WHERE WE LAY'

PUT YOU INSIDE...

'IN A FIELD OF HEATHER
A TREE IS FALLING
WATCHES ARE TICKING
DIMINISHING LUCIDITY
EVERTHING FAILING
MEMORIES ARENT SHIFTING
REMAINING
STAGNANT.
NO SKY NO EARTH NO OBLIVIA
IN THIS FUCKING FIELD OF HEATHER.
.............................................

TINY SEAMS.
WRITHE INSIDE
THE DARK AGAINST THE INNER WALL
THE LIGHT BEYOND YOUR SIDE
COMING FORTH TO
SWALLOW YOU WHOLE.
UNDERTONES AND SCRAPING
OVER THERE.
PACING LIGHT.
OVER HERE.
THE OTHER SIDE.
QUIET AND SOFTER.

i want this..
I yearn for this..
is there a problem.
no...
theres not a problem..
unless you consider breathing a problem..

go ahead love.. let it flow.
tiny seams.

"pieces of us, in my pockets, on the floor."

loved. forever. alone.

theres one truth to this...
ITS ALL MY DOING.
why'd you let me..

I LOVE YOU TOO.