demigauge

i have been singing along to "lanslide" a lot..the dixie chick version...and you know..for even being sick i sing it pritty damn good..and it's very close to what i am feeling right now...which is odd eh?

it's make me feel peacefull and thoughtful..yet at the same time want to cry....don't know where all this is coming from...
maybe a new me is trying to surface eh?
with the fact of my 21st birthday is coming up...which will mean i am truely an adult now..and no longer a child..but does that mena i should put away childish things and become a grey and concerned adult?
two things are ripping my mind apart...mostly people and myself...preassure coming form all sides attacking and picking at me...making blood pour fromevery tear they make with their sharp eyes and misguiding words...one love..and one illusion

shit i think i need a drink
Landslide
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I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too
Well...

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older, too
Well I'm getting older too

So, take this love and take it down
Year and if you climb a mountain and ya turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well maybe
Well maybe
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down