demigauge

well i got my whole outfit together for prom...got these boots that make me about 5'7" or 5'8"...which is nice cause i'm only 5'4" which is really short..and i get made fun of for it...man i sure hopemy dress won't make me sweat to much...trying tothink of a way to put my hair up also..since i cut it again...heh...

been watching way to much harry potter...and worrying way to much about my interview..i have one tomorrow and one on monday ..the first one is with American Eagle...the second is with Buffalo Exchange..i sure hope i can get Buffalo ...cause i would be getting as much as i use to earn with Levi's when i did get hours..which was $8/hr....and it will only be part time which is fine with me....i sure hope they will give me time off for prom..since i have everything for it..and my ticket...blargh...

so how are you this fine day..or so it seems to be fine


oh and the count down continues

100 days left till i am 21

Mommy why can't i be special?


hey look kids...fresh from my mind..a poem...i knew depression was good for something

Enigma



feeling that vast void of lonelyness
it feels like it is sucking my soul out from under me
choking back these feelings..
i keep them hidden from everyone
even the ones that are close


sometimes i feel like i am marching towards a slow death
a slow and poitnless existents
only there to amuse..
never truely loved or understood
i am the enigma
the unknown
the too cmplex

i will swallow you whole.

i think this is why others stay away
or just seem to be nice
to get their way

i feel my egines pwering down
loosing faith and control
i shall drift through this existence
never know true joy or purpose

for i am the enigma
that why the others stay away