demigauge

a new entry for a new day...well going to go see sleather kinney tomorrow and going out to meet boojiboy for lunch and a movie i think....weird....anywho
here is another song for are you happy people

i am putting hurt on here cause it is the only nin song that truely speaks to me on many different levels...tell me which level it speaks to you?

HURT
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i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything

what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

i wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
i am still right here

what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way


you know i experonced something last night that will make me think more than twice to commit suicide...of what i would put other people through....of how selfish it is..and how slefish it is to act like your going to do it and actualy make someone think your doing it..of what the mental and physical pain it puts someone through..the thoughts....the crying..the shaking....i will try my best never to put someone again through these thngs..cause it's selfish and childish..wonder how long these thoughts will last...what do you think?