demigauge

blargh i have had that "Gollum's Song " stuck in my head for the last couple of days....cause it's so good and true to what i feel most of the time.

blargh i have been trying to be more responsive to people but i'm not getting thin in return....whic make me think people hate me and that i might have to take a good look at who i really consider as a friend and stuff...

blargh i don't know gues si'm just sick of things and being left out.. no one calls ..well maybe 1-2 people do..but yeah...i'm the looser on the computer with nothing better to doo...and this is me rambling about everything and thinking way too much about everything...
but the one thing i am excited about is this weekend i get to bmet Bird which is a fellow eroticbpm model..she seems like silly hyper monkey like i can be at times..plus she is being nice enough to give me a rid eover to the little party thing we're going to...


pplus i think people should know i only stay cold cause i don't like to get close to people for fear of getting hurt..
ahywho...here is some song lyrics

"Gollum's Song"
-Lord of the rings


Where once was light
Now darkness falls
Where once was love
Love is no more
Don't say goodbye
Don't say I didn't try

These tears we cry
Are falling rain
For all the lies you told us
The hurt, the blame!
And we will weep to be so alone
We are lost
We can never go home

So in the end
I'll be what I will be
No loyal friend
Was ever there for me

Now we say goodbye
We say you didn't try

These tears you cry
Have come too late
Take back the lies
The hurt, the blame!

And you will weep
When you face the end alone
You are lost
You can never go home
You are lost
You can never go home