dementia_____

...cant shake these feelings from me. Tried all week. Not working.

Im sick and tired of having dreary, depressive journals, but even more sick of feeling this way in real life.

Called Miss. Akuma today, talked for a minute. Every time I think about her and Jarrod it makes me sad. This is pure selfishness on my part, but I cant help it.
I wish I could drive, and I would visit them more. I miss someone scolding me and laughing with me at the same time.
I dont know if she is keeping her SG profile or not. Its been a long time.

I also talked to Amy today and she told me that the first (outdoor) set of me, as well as the second (NES) set of me turned out super. I hope she gets a decent mark on them. She said she may have copies for me next week sometime. I shall scan them when able.

Made a huge amount of my yummy guacamole tonight and made me sick. I eat it just plain even, it is that good.

I also took apart and prepped(sanded) my old dresser in the hopes of painting it. I got all ready and alas it seems I havent a big enough paint brush. This made me sad.
For a moment I DID consider spray painting it....but....I didnt follow on that.

Nothing else to say except that my stomach is moderatly better, still waiting on those test results, but now other problems have surfaced that I have to go in for....poop.

All in all, I want to break free and be happy and have picnics at Ross Bay and visit Miss. Akuma and Mr. Wifey and Wee one.

I am axious, excited and terribly sad.
I dont have any reason to be.
Things could be sooo much worse.
Maybe Im just the baby.