dementia_____

~The Absinthe smells like isoproponol mixed with dead bodies.
~I spent most of my day messing around with the university and various other people trying to get everything in order for next spring.
~Lonliness is rarely broken by anything subtler than a brief kiss.
~Jasmine tea is once again my complete and utter friend for life.

I wrote an entire page of garble that was supposed to be meaningful text evaluation....This further demonstrates to me my ability er non ability rather to remain in the real world so to speak.

This morning around 3 am I woke to find people had msged me, God knows why I left my computer on I think I had a fever earlier. Anyways, one of my favorite people, Davey, had mailed me. When I woke up later that morning to ready myself for class, Id noticed scribbles of this email msg all around my computer...apparently done by me, during my period awake..this is odd for many reasons, but mostly b/c I never do such things. I think I must have been asleep. The words werent even words, but fractions of the words. Words that were broken. It is very odd.

Everything confuses me lately. My view of everything is fractured, "discombobulated", askew. I feel like I am trying to do things, look at things through pieces of glass that are broken and each time I look, or try to do it. ..the pieces get more and more fractured and imposssible to use. It is very annoying.


Edited to say:
~ I ended up talking to Davey until 330 in the freaking morning....I had to get up at 730 for my Prehistory Class..and the last one of the semester at that. Im soooo gonna need an armful of tea this morning.
Anyways....take care lovelies.