delusion

i have no pretty words today just double helix crossings of emotions, they are overlapping, interwoven & unpolished. inevitably they lead only to more words and commas, continuations of incomplete thoughts and inconclusions loosely knitted by fragmented chips of grammar, adverbs and prepostions, words like "unless" and "thereof" and "otherwise" which glue these fragments of thought and experience together into a cohesive narrative.
i love the word "unless". its freight of hope and paradoxically-it's ability to threaten.
"i can't do that...UNLESS..."
"UNLESS you do that i will...."
unless can only exist when future is unknown, when hope is held, before knowledge makes us naked and ashamed. unless is the link that is broken when innocence is overcome by knowledge, shadow fills the place devoid of light.
unless becomes because and consequently. finite. unmalleable.
UNLESS......